What if I had changed?
What if you waited too long?
And the me you knew had gone?
Would it have hurt or burn?
Or would it have just been a lesson to learn?
I was there waiting at every door
Said the twists and turns in my core
You took me on adventures to soar
Thought you let me fall when I needed you most
I saw you on the coast
And you whispered that you were there
While the wind blew through my hair
I ignored you, because your voice hit me like bricks
I thought you were playing tricks
And then you appeared in that dream
I guess you know me too well
I don’t even know why I was mad
Or maybe it was the distance that made me sad
I wished you could’ve just sped things up a tad
I know everything is meant to be
But why does time have to become a lost key?
I fell into my little mind’s game
But it’s not me I’m going to blame
I’ve done it too much to make that move again
Instead, I let it go and thanked you
Turns out, we’re always learning something new
I remembered my perception can sometimes be askew
My impatience doesn’t need to turn into a mental zoo
Alternatively, I can look through the eyes you view
While I put my trust to the test and collect what’s true
This poem is an interesting one. I think there are two meanings to it; one that resonates is taking a trip down the lane of my past! This piece starts as my present self asking the Universe what if I had changed and you were too late, and then it goes into my days of doubt in the Universe. Writing on a real past conversation I had in my head, there was a day I was walking on the coastline of a beach and I heard the Universe’s voice, but, I pushed it to the side. That day actually taught me to start listening and facing my feelings more; so, the piece ends with the lessons I learned. The second meaning could be about a relationship in my life; as I was reading this poem, I was flashed some memories about it and came to some new realizations. I really like the way it turned out; the mystery and vulnerability within it lets the words come together a bit more. Normally when I write poems, I finish it and it is complete, but, this one I edited a few times as the double meaning had me running in circles a bit! I hope this helps you on your journey! Be fearless and free -Ace