Tag: belief

fragments

March 7th, 2023

our days are fragments
of our lives
our minutes are fragments
of our hours
our moments are fragments
of who we are

our lives begin
the moment we’re born
our fragments make up our reality
but our reality is made of the unforeseen
so our lives begin
the moment we choose to live

there’s a balance to our fragments
like the way a creek will sway
there are times when we’re meant to learn
and times we’re meant to experience
one fragment will lead to the next
and then it will all make “sense”

if we were born to live
then there’s more than filling the years
there’s a rhythm to find and a flight to catch
there’s living and failing, rising and falling
a fragment needs another to connect
but a fragment trusts another to teach

-Grace

Author’s Note – if our little, tiny, everyday moments/fragments were speaking to us…which, they always are :).
the moment i loved all the times i’ve fought

March 3rd, 2023

It flies in the air
It floats in how we care
Doesn’t need a reason or a rhyme
Just an inner season without time

Some call it a once in a while high, others a source
Some just believe, others make it their course
We all agreed at some point that this is living
But we forgot to clarify purposeful giving

It’s in my fingertips when I write
Flowing in my blood when I stay and fight
Pulses through my breath in the heat of a fiery now
It’s the magic string that lets my universes bow

It’s not a special skill or a chosen power
It’s the choice to be what’s beyond the hour
We’ve all felt it whether it’s been seen or not
The moment I loved all the times I’ve fought

It’s the something that connects you and me
The something that makes our words free
It’s the smile when something resonates
The fearless fire when a spark detonates

-Grace

Author’s Note – in this piece, the words “fight/fought” are meant in the way of choosing to fight and to live rather than just getting through life or waiting for a moment to be over. Yes, “fighting” is often used in the negative but, in my life recently, it’s been one of the most positive things…and it will be that way in my writing too :).
this dreamy descent

February 21st, 2023

We talk about lifelong memories
The way they shape our inner documentaries
We talk about seizing a moment, a specific time
The way it’ll harmonize like our favorite chime

There’s a climb and a descent
A climb to the day we always dreamt
A descent back to normal when it’s over
The way a love can become your closure

We dream of a specifically distinct vision
It becomes the something that makes us driven
The day comes when that vision is your reality
Smacks you in the face, this waking fantasy

You think about all that could go wrong
The fears flutter like a disjointed song
But something kicks in and wakes you up
Reminded of who you are, it fills your cup

Then you live everything going so right
As if perfection truly is in sight
You pull through a hard obstacle
Like a puzzle you didn’t know was solvable

When you’re just about done
You’re taken back to when it all begun
The win seems like it’s floating away
But it’s still right there if you stay

There will be moments it doesn’t feel like a dream
Moments you wonder why you chose this theme
There will be times you’d rather crash than fly
Times you wonder why you want the high

But that something comes whooshing back
Pushes the fear to the side with a whack
Reminds you to look around, to remember who you are
To feel the fire deep inside your shooting star

So you look at everyone in your crew
You look within, remembering you grew
You take a deep breath, gather your force
And that’s why the dream is your source

-Grace
in my own world

February 17th, 2023

Staring at the world in front, eyes wide and senses alive – yet there is nothing to see. The mind floats around from one idea to the next, one memory to one dream and one moment of hurricane to one moment of nothingness. There’s a peace in the wandering mind, a sense of home in the fluttering of familiar rabbit holes. In that comforting moment of internal adventure, everything outside evaporates into a new imagination.

She’s staring ahead, eyes on me, yet the heart seems to be on a different adventure. There’s something so alive in her gaze yet so dead in her attention to the outside. If there was a bubble around each of us, hers would be so intently fixated on every little detail of the present yet so mysterious in its grasp of reality. Her eyes may be focused on one thing, but her truest eye is flowing in another. I guess that’s where the lines of vision and sight get blurred.

Author’s Note – Inspired by the gym :-). I’m a total gym-rat and in-between sets the other day I was staring ahead but totally not fixated on what I was staring at, just in my own world. So, this piece is an elaboration of that. The first verse being my point of view and the second being the point of view of…whatever my eyes seemed to be set on :-).
true discipline

February 7th, 2023

Drive
Intuitiveness
Strength
Character
Intention
Peace
Love
Instinct
Natural
Empowering

Drive towards something more
Intuitiveness beats at the core
Strength is a word you define
Character is your own chosen design
Intention, the start of any action
Peace, the success of any interaction
Love to yourself, we often forget
Instincts within, confused as a threat
Natural rhythm flows at the heart
Empowering the mind is true art

Drive inside at who you truly are
Intuitiveness is your shooting star
Strength grows when we let go
Character becomes your glow
Intention sparks with just one thought
Peace surrounds in just one watt
Love is more than external romance
Instinct leads your internal dance
Natural confidence is always yours
Empowering the soul opens all doors

This is true discipline.

Author’s Note – Back to my rhyming roots with this one :-). This is an acrostic (disipline being the word). Discipline is truly one of my favorite things in this world, it’s a deep part of who I am and how I keep the fire within.

I think it gets blurred with many different “motivational quotes” but at its core displine is your choice – your choice to be consistent in honoring yourself. There is no better feeling than staying disciplined and pushing through obstacles, there is no better feeling than surprising yourself.
athlete mentality

January 17th, 2023

Shoes on the court
Trickles of sweat
Taped thumbs and ankles
Racquet in my calloused hand
The stickiness of a new grip
The sound of fresh strings on the ball
The connection to the concrete

Bounce the ball like that’s all there is
Play with the chain on my neck
Start the swing I’ve swung a billion times
Watch my mind go into automatic

Play the point
Reset the moment
Memory gets deactivated
Stillness gets ignited
Chase another ball
Step up to the line
Repeat it all a million more times

Competition is so hard to explain
But it pulls something out of you
I sense her across the net
I watch her play little games
My alarm goes off
I find the tiger within
I break the chain
Let her out
Forget sensing her across the net
Sense the moment instead

There’s always a choice
A choice to raise and pull ahead
Or a choice to let it get to you
Mind gets a little talkative
Feet start to bounce a little more
Score becomes heavier
The dopamine rush knocks at the door

I hear all the voices that have ever built me up
I see all the times I fought for my grit
I feel the fire inside, the one I learned to light
And that’s when I know, I’ll walk off the court with the balls

-Grace

Author’s Note – Walking off court with the balls means you won in tennis :-). I usually like to keep my two worlds separate…being an athlete (tennis) and being a writer. But I just came off a big tournament win and I thought I’d let my worlds collide :-). Competition has been a journey for me, but in so many moments this weekend I realized it’s a journey I will look back on with a smile inside and out. To show up for myself in the heat of the moment is the true victory, beyond the trophy.

High level tennis is hard to make relatable, it’s much more than what is portrayed in the public eye…it’s an intensity like no other and requires the highest level of mental toughness. I could write a million pieces on tennis and competing, and that wouldn’t be nearly enough to describe every aspect of it all. But for this piece, just remember “that choice” is a choice we make not just in competition but in everyday life.
creator consciousness

January 10th, 2023

structure and flow
fast and slow
boundaries and love
below and above
listen and speak
new and antique

We find comfort in believing in opposites
Until we look from a different consciousness
We say opposites attract and leave it at that
As if life isn’t a rhythm of waves, but just flat

Although we prefer a would you rather
Opposites are a collection of what we gather
Life isn’t a series of different opponents
Much more a recipe of specific components

I’d pick structure over flow, fast over slow
I’m finding a middle with boundaries and love
Living in moments below and perspectives above
I’d listen over speak, starting to love new over antique

There’s a common opposite, strength and weakness
Those words work together becoming your uniqueness
But that’s the truth with every opposite, they blend
Opponents are not the enemy, but the deeper friend

Without the flow, life would be the distracted kind of slow
Without love, there’d be no life to live below or above
Without a way to speak, connection would be antique
Without opposites, there’d be no creator consciousness

-Grace
hottest flame of fire

January 6th, 2023

Glistened red
Crimson blue
A flame spread
A fire flew

A picture of heat
looks like fiery red
Maybe a little sweet
or a passion finally said

A picture of cold
looks like an icy blue
Maybe a story told
or a feeling so true

Society’s definition of emotions
is simply going through life’s motions
Blue for sadness
and red for madness

They don’t tell you
the hottest part of fire
is that glimmering blue
beyond red, a burning desire

There is no definition of emotion
we’re simply a complicated ocean
Blue for experiencing every wave
Red for beginning to ignite the flame

We start with red
We heat up into blue
The flame ahead
The fire in you

-Grace

Author’s Note – I remember learning a couple years ago that the hottest part of a flame is the color blue. This fascinated me as it’s not really talked about; and because blue is often associated with the emotion of sadness and the thought of cold.

So, this piece started very differently than the colors of blue and red and the thoughts of fire…I’m still very much living my last piece, “doors”. But I love how this one turned out because blue has always been my favorite color – all its different dimensions and all the different blues captured me (the blueness is my eyes has become my favorite 😊) – never really loved the tie in of sadness though.

So, here’s my definition of being blue: I know we all have our own inner fire. I used to think that inner fire starts as wood and becomes a fire when we choose it, but maybe it starts as actual fire and becomes blue when we own it.
doors

January 3rd, 2023

turn the handle
hear the soft creak
take a deep breath
put one foot through
take one more breath
see what seems true
observe all the rest
leave the door behind
learn a few lessons
walk a few steps
venture too far
hit a wall
find the door again
lock it, no look back
hear a knock
over and over
easy to know who
with thumps so familiar
yet the door remains closed
then the sound becomes
more of a ring
and the heart listens
thinking bout turning the lock
ring ring ring ring
walk up to the door
feel the handle
walk away
walk back to the door
take a deep breath
open it once again
put one foot through
and pause
say one’s piece
make peace
with what’s beyond
the door
hear it almost close
behind thyself
take a deep breath
and wonder
how many doors
will stay open
how many doors
will stay closed
how many doors
will stay in-between
-Grace

Author’s Note – A little bit of a different style for me, but I wanted to play around with words…that is the beauty of writing after all :).

Often, I’ve felt comfort in hearing a door close and I’m learning to love hearing a door open. Doors open and close in life, it’s always kind of interesting to watch the journey. So cheers to finding peace in whichever way the door moves.
simply intricate

December 16th, 2022

If every thought that lived in my head took material form,
it’d be one intricately woven web.
Crisscrossing in emotion, intertwining in depth
shrinking and growing at the same time.
Designed like a messy whole of dancing strands because
an “intricately woven web” doesn’t mean “a flawless web of perfection”.

I’m learning more and more how beautiful the “messiness” is,
it’s where the self is found.
The messier and the more imperfect my mind is,
the more I can truly see.
There’s something so pure about the so-called “mess”,
something so touching about being internally direct.

I often wonder what a web that’s never quite complete
but always somewhat far along in progress could look like.
It’s like feeling an emotion so deeply,
that you realize how truly alive you are,
yet how much more new emotion there is to feel and experience.

Intricacy is what we are in the mind,
yet simplicity is who we are in our core.
So, does that make our individual webs of thought complex or lucid?
Are we intricately woven or clearly spoken?

-Grace

Author’s Note – I don’t usually add punctuation to my poetry, but this piece originally started as a giant paragraph of random thoughts that were floating through my mind. And I let it keep flowing that way because it’s fun to see how the mind will tie everything together in the end.

I often play around with the paradox of life being truly complex or deeply simple, and this piece is like a physical web of all those internal conversations I’ve had about it. In the end, we’re alive to truly LIVE no matter how it feels or what it looks like or how it constantly changes – life is simply (and intricately :)) about living.