How are you truly feeling today?
Tag: journaling
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I thought I’d do something a little different today and do more of a journal entry/letter type share that describes what’s on my mind and how I’m feeling. Thank you for reading! I hope this helps you on your journey and remember, dig for truth everywhere you go. Don’t believe the outside, believe the inside, you. Be fearless and free -Ace -
Hello readers!! I am so excited for today’s Q&A and to take you behind the scenes into my new story, Remembering The Light. Spoiler alert, if you haven’t read the story yet, this Q&A will make no sense, so, I encourage you to go read the story first. We all need a little fiction right now! It’s not too too long and it will definitely keep you entertained!
What gave you the idea to do a story?
Well, I love writing fiction and the creativity that goes into it. I hadn’t written a story in a really long time and I’ve never written one that is as long as Remembering The Light is. I thought it would be fun to change it up and write something completely different than what I normally do. As different as it from the writing I normally do, it is also the same because there is a lot of love, lessons of courage and it shows the beauty of good relationships. I also feel like the world needs better entertainment that isn’t brainwashing like the television. And happy endings, we definitely need a lot more happy endings so, I made sure to give you just that! I also hadn’t read a fictional book in a really long time and as I was reading that fictional book, I realized I could for sure write my own.
What gave you the idea to title it Remembering The Light? And when did you title this story?
I had three options – either Looking For You, Always Here For You or Remembering The Light. I sat with each of them for a night and then something just clicked and I decided on Remembering The Light. I don’t know what exactly gave me the idea, I think the thought crossed my mind of Ray telling Mr. and Mrs. Hudson at the end of the story to remember Connor in the light. So I made that thought reality and I’m really glad that was the last line of this story. I titled this story towards the end, when I was writing Chapter 19, I think, I started to feel like it was time to title it. And while I was writing either Chapter 20 or 21 I decided on Remembering The Light. And you’ll see in chapters after that, that I start throwing the word light in more and I gave the team a name, Team Light – of course!
Who is the protagonist in the story?
Ray. When I started writing the story, I didn’t know if Ray or Sabrina would be the protagonist but it definitely turned out to be Ray. But Ray wouldn’t be as good of a character without all the other characters so, in a way they all play a role in being the protagonist.
We’re going to character by character, so lets start with Ray. What was the inspiration for Ray’s character?
Ray is inspired by someone I know very well. I think Ray’s growth throughout the story is really cool, I feel like she’s such a different character in the beginning of the book then at the end. She is super strong internally and fearless. After what happened to Connor in the beginning of the story, she really took a big leap of faith in changing her life completely. We all make mistakes and she isn’t perfect but her fearlessness and softness in her heart is what makes her very likable to me. Ray puts on this hard and tough shell but she’s really kind and compassionate on the inside. Her character is admirable I think, she’s confident and poised but she has a good heart and believes in people. Out of all the characters, I think I got to know her the best.
Why did you write the story based mostly in high school and young adult life?
I think those years are a pivotal time in life. I had this idea for the plot of the story and it just came to me in the time period of older kid/young adult life so I ran with it. I wanted the almost parental relationship for Uncle John and Ray too, and I thought if she was any older it probably wouldn’t work.
Talk about Sabrina. Inspiration for her character? Favorite parts about her?
Sabrina is bold and naturally brave. She is a bit inspired by my brother’s personality and by different parts of the same person who inspired Ray’s character. Sabrina speaks her mind and is very honest, almost blunt at times. Her impatience is totally relatable to me and I think she’s really in touch with her feelings. I think Sabrina helps Ray with getting in touch with her feelings and her heart and Ray helps Sabrina in being strong even in the hardest of situations. I love how every character in the story knows Sabrina is really good with words and they let her do the talking most of the time, I feel like she is really seen by each character.
Talk about Shawn? What do you like about his character?
Shawn is such a likable guy. I feel like the story would be lacking humor and levity without him, it’d be too dark. He is a bit inspired by my friend. I love Shawn and Sabrina’s relationship, or should I say Shawn and Bri’s. 🙂 I needed something to show they were really close and I felt if he was the only one who called her Bri, it would be perfect; not to brag, but I think it is perfect. I knew once I developed the relationship a bit that I didn’t want them to fight or have any low moments, I wanted to show a strong and united relationship. The way Shawn reads Sabrina shows how in touch he is with his energy and her’s. Later on in the story you get to see his inner strength and courage too. The way he gained Ray’s belief and how much it meant to him just really made me smile. Overall, his character really has a lot of character. 🙂
And Zach, he came in as a bit of a surprise. How did you think of that plot twist? What do you like about Zach?
So, I originally thought in the early days of writing this story that it would be cool if Shawn had an older brother somewhere too. But it was just an idea, I didn’t think I’d actually use it. It came back into my head and I thought it was too late to write it in, but it worked. I’ll talk about this later but I feel like I wasn’t writing it, I felt like the characters were writing it and I was just their voice. So, in this case, the thought just occurred to Uncle John and I ran away with it. I think the hurt of losing Zach made Ray more lovable and like she wasn’t just cold when it came to relationships. Zach obviously messed up, and he knew it. But forgiveness is so important and I try to get that message across in this story. Forgiveness doesn’t come super easy to me so, writing about it gave me some clarity. You can really tell how similar Shawn and Zach are. There are a lot of meaningful conversations with Zach involved. I like Zach’s openness and his ability to realize he’s made mistakes but then to make up for it in his actions. He has a really good heart which is why forgiveness comes pretty easily to Shawn and Ray when it comes to him.
Uncle John, he’s like the supervisor of this whole thing. Talk about him and what inspired his character.
I wanted him to have his secrets too, so that way he could really help Ray by understanding and supporting her need to help people. You could really tell he cared about her and Sabrina, but obviously he was closer with Ray. Uncle John is a very calm character and like the glue to the team. I think without him the rest of the characters would be a little lost. That conversation between Ray and Uncle John really was sweet, you could see in that moment that they were so similar and that Uncle John knew just the right thing to say to her in that moment. He’s inspired by my parents, meaning the character of his character, not the combat and G.A.S stuff. 🙂 Uncle John is super caring, honest and strong inside and out. It’s hard not to like him.
What was the hardest part of writing this story?
The conversations for sure. It was hard to make them realistic and relatable, I hadn’t written dialogue in a long time so, it was actually nice to do it again. But I think the conversations made the story, like, without them it would just be kind of a boring story with five characters who sort of know each other. The conversations showed the growth within each character and their hearts too.
How did you feel when you reunited Zach and Shawn?
That was actually really hard to write because I’ve never seen nor experienced having an older brother who’s been tracking you that you’ve never met. 🙂 So, I had to really sit with myself and get clear to figure out how I was going to make it realistic. In my heart I was happy for them, I’ll explain this more later but the characters to me are very alive, so, I genuinely felt like it was a real event happening in real life.
How did you feel when you reunited Zach and Ray?
That one was a little easier then Zach and Shawn. I wanted Zach to still be likable even though he broke her heart because in my imagination I knew he was genuinely a really good guy. But I felt Ray’s anger in my gut, I’ve felt her pain before, not in her specific situation but I get the feeling. As I was writing that part in the story, I didn’t know if I was going to make Ray forgive Zach or not. Her forgiveness naturally came because in my head, I was like, “Sabrina forgave Ray pretty easily for something that was worse than what Zach did. So I can’t make Ray pissed forever.” That letter from Zach was really sweet and I think it showed he was truly sorry and that he really knew her. That letter and Sabrina, made Ray change her mind. I was smiling picturing that scene because I like showing that honesty and communication can change everything when you really care about someone.
What is your favorite chapter in the book?
That is really hard. The conversations, even though they are hard to write, are definitely my favorite part because without them the story lacks heart, love and depth. And you’ll notice I like to play off parallel stories, so the conversations come in back to back chapters, or sometimes the characters will use the same lines. I like using the same lines sometimes because it shows how similar they are in their hearts and feelings. But if I had to pick it would either be the combo of Chapter 11&12 (Facing Feelings and Lean On) or Chapter 21 (Stronger Together).
Who is your favorite character?
Impossible decision. Can’t pick, because without Sabrina, Ray wouldn’t be as lovable or without Shawn, Sabrina wouldn’t be as lovable etc. They all need each other to shine.
If you could go back and change anything, what would you change and why?
Honestly, I’m really happy with the way it turned out and it feels so complete. I was going to make it longer and throw some more twists in, but I realized I like how it ended and when. I can always do a sequel, which I think I will be doing. If I had to change something, maybe give Sabrina and Ray’s parents a bigger role, maybe, but I think then it would be too many characters and plot lines.
Let’s talk about Connor. What gave you the idea to start off on such a bang? And do you wish he was still alive?
Connor is the soul of the story, he might’ve only been in it for the first chapter but without Connor there would be nothing or no one to fight for. Connor is the back bone of the story, shaping Ray into the strong and fearless person she is and being the driving force of a lot of characters. I don’t know what exactly inspired me, I guess I just thought of what I would like to read and I like when books get going fast, so that’s what I did. I do wish he was alive, but I also like Zach and Ray’s relationship so that might’ve been weird. As I said earlier, I think I’ll do a sequel so, I don’t know, maybe I’ll throw that in there. 🙂
What is the main message in the story? Or what’s the moral of the story?
Light always wins. And love. Without the love between the characters and the light they each shine as individuals and as a collective there’d be no heart to this story. I think the story really shows the ups and downs of relationships and the harmony of coming together and being a team. I think we all need to see more stories of light winning and we all need to imagine more beautiful things and not the low vibrational crap that’s being pumped into our brains through anything mainstream.
So, you’ve been saying a lot that the characters to you are very much alive, talk a little more about that.
The characters wrote this story, I was just the someone in-between who put their words on paper. I remember telling my mom when I was writing it, that I felt like the characters were my really good friends and like I knew them so well. I needed that connection in that time in my life, I was having some friend struggles, but being able to connect with different parts of myself through these characters really helped me. When I’d write a conversation or any scene really, it was almost like the voices in the heads of the characters were communicating with my voice and we were collaborating on how to make the scene as good as it possibly could be. And I think the best part of writing a story is that the characters are with you even when you’re not writing it. I talked about the creative zone a bit when I released my album but to go even further, the creative zone stays with you throughout the entire project and it is a different type of adrenaline. I forgot in writing fiction that the characters are always in your head, and to live that for the two/three weeks when I was writing it, was really special. You never feel alone or anything because you’re constantly imagining and these characters are always with you in your head. It’s unlike anything else.
And with that we’ll end today’s Q&A! Thank you for reading! If you have any questions you’d like me to answer about the story, just comment and I’d be more than happy to answer. I hope this story and Q&A bring you as much joy as they bring me. And maybe it will inspire you to write and use your imagination! Be fearless and free – Ace
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What does it mean to love yourself?
It’s funny, a few months ago I really thought this saying, “love yourself” was so cheesy and very self centered. 😂 So if you feel the same way right now, I get it. But let me assure you it is not a cheesy saying at all and it is definitely not selfish, it is actually the key to being your very best self. When you love yourself, you completely let go of all judgements you make on yourself and your little mind has no power or control over you. Whatever it says to make you feel small you just let it go and give it no attention or power. For me personally, I am very hard on myself. The hard part was recognizing when my little voice was speaking or when I was just being hard on myself because I do think having high but healthy expectations on yourself is really good. So like in all things awareness and recognition is the first step and once you get that down the rest kind of falls into place. To love yourself means to live fully from your higher self and your soul and to choose freedom because once you love yourself you truly become free.
There is a lot of fear in this world right now, how do you not give it power and not let it bring you down?
The frequency of love is always the answer. The frequency they want us to live in is fear and control and it is very strong. But I always say your thoughts create your reality. If you focus on that dark frequency then you’ll get more of it and you’ll be living in it. So you have to choose in every single moment to live in the frequency of love. It sounds daunting and hard to constantly choose the frequency you wish to live in but it really isn’t. Especially when your well being, soul and heart depend on the frequency of love, the highest vibration in the world. Every time that lower frequency tries to take you over replace your thoughts, recharge and focus on love. Your thoughts are really the key here, even subconsciously. Whatever you focus on expands, whatever is in your mind will be your reality. Be strong mentally and only focus on the things you want in your reality. You can always come back to love and light; if you’re ever feeling like you need something you need to give it to receive it. So give and spread the frequency of love and you’ll be filled with it.
Where do you think thoughts come from?
I love this question because I think there are so many answers to it. I have a few theories. Number one, the Universe for sure. We are the Universe and the Universe is so vast filled with so many different beings. Channeling is a real thing and we are multidimensional beings so I think maybe other beings plant certain thoughts in our head. This would make sense because there lots of beings who feed off darkness so if you have a negative thought it could just be some dark being trying to feed off your fear. It might sound crazy but at this point nothing sounds crazy to me. Number two, our higher selves for sure. I don’t know if I’m alone in this feeling but sometimes I’ll hear a voice in my head that is just so sure of itself, so powerful and so true. Like it sounds like me but it doesn’t because it sounds so much deeper. It’s hard to explain, I don’t know it’s like a thought that comes into my head in a different voice and there is nothing else for me to think about because it’s my higher self trying to send me a message. Number three, we are all connected. Every single one of us is connected on this planet and beyond. So, I think you could be reading someone else’s thought and then think it’s your own but it really isn’t. See, if someone’s vibration is strong enough then it is contagious which makes their energy and thoughts very easy to read, especially if you know your vibration super well then you can read anyone’s thoughts. Think about it, if you go to a restaurant and eight people are behind you also trying to get a table then technically you all had the same thought to eat at this specific restaurant at this certain time.
What is one thing you wish the entire world knew?
That is a really tough question I could answer in many many different ways. But I think I’ll go with this: I wish that every single person in this world knew how much strength and power they contained. If we all knew our strength and power we wouldn’t be following ridiculously nonsensical orders in a so called “free” country. If we all knew our power we would stand up and fight for freedom and realize that it just takes a strong and united front to diminish all darkness. We are constantly being controlled and told how small and weak we are because the “controllers” know we are so powerful. Each one of us can make a difference in one way or another, all it takes is realizing our strength, opening our eyes to truly see and harnessing the frequency of love.
Why is it so important to be in touch with your feelings and to face them?
When you are in touch with your feelings then you are in touch with who you are at your core. You know who you really are and that is one of the best things in the world. If you let your feelings just sit there and if you continue to push them down and distract yourself then one day the Universe will just bang you over the head with them. Not as in a “punishment” because the Universe always speaks love and is trying to help you, but as in “you need to get this message”. Feelings never go away until you face them and you have to face them to grow. Obviously, if we have good feelings it is very easy for us to face them, but I think when we do have good feelings we need to understand why we do and how to maintain those good feelings; rather than just enjoy the temporary emotions. Our emotions connect us to the highest versions of ourselves and it is our emotions that separate us from the dark beings out there. It is so important to feel things and then to express how you feel or else it will continue to eat at you. You will always feel better when you dive into your feelings and understand the message the Universe is sending you.
How do you read energy?
I like to think of reading energy as our special superpower because it really is. We can all do it and once you do you’ll be able to know who you’re meant to connect with, who you’re not meant to connect with, the real truth behind a person, the real truth behind the world and the language of the Universe. I think through reading energy the biggest gift of all is the stronger relationship you get with the Universe. Because then the Universe starts giving you more signs and you start to see it more in your life; it was always there but now you see it. But, how do you read energy…the first step is to be very in touch with your frequency. If you don’t know your own frequency then how can you expect to know someone else’s? That’s another added benefit of being able to read energy, you’ll get to know yourself so well. Once you know who you are anything is possible. Then your energy will be like your best friend, you’ll know everything about it. That’s when it gets fun because everything just flows naturally. You can’t force it, there will be something inside of you that just knows the energy and the vibe off something or someone. Then it is up to you to trust it; my advice, trust yourself the first time you get a read off someone’s energy. Your intuition, higher self and heart are always right so trust them. Don’t waste time pushing down your feelings of someone’s or something’s energy.
That’s it for today! I love doing articles like this, I’ve done a few in the past with this format. When I write in question and answer format I almost feel like it is coming straight from my higher self, like channeling. It is super clear and honest. I find it very helpful for myself and hopefully super helpful to you! And these are really good topics to focus on and form opinions about. Please comment with any questions you’d like answered, I’d be more than happy to answer! Be fearless and free -Ace
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Daydreaming her day away, she stared at the magical sunset. She let her mind rest, became in tune with her heart, sat in the depth of her soul and tapped into her connection to all. She often wondered if life was just a daydream; her daydream.
Be fearless and free -Ace
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How do you define love?
In life there are really only two things; love and fear. It is that simple. Everything that isn’t fear is love and anything that isn’t love is fear. Love to me is a feeling, a connection and a vision. Love is an action, an emotion, a relationship, a mindset and an intention. Love makes you feel complete and whole, at peace and excited for life. I spent too much time with fear in my life and I have now shifted completely and live my life fully based on love. I feel balanced, joyous, passionate about my life and happy about the people in it. Love creates the reality you want.
How would you describe soul centered living?
I think of it like this; your body is the avatar and your soul is the real you. Your soul is the truest part of your being, it taps you into your past lives, into feeling truly alive and into the deepest place of love. When you live from your soul there is no need to think anymore. You do everything based off feeling and deep knowing in your intuition and heart. You realize you are a special piece of the Universe and the Universe is you. Then everything you go through in life becomes an adventure or a practice to trust your soul enough to act only from it and not your little mind.
The voices in your head, how do you define them?
I believe there are two voices in your head, just like there are really only two things in life. The first voice, the only voice you should listen to is your higher self/the Universe/your soul/love/the real you. This voice supports you, wants the best for you, loves you and ultimately is the true you, the one who is the Universe. The second voice, the voice you should tune out is what I call your little mind. I say little because it acts like it has power but in reality it has no power, making it little. This voice is pure fear and does not have your best interest in mind. I wouldn’t say it is evil for without it you wouldn’t know what courage is, you wouldn’t grow and you wouldn’t see the power of love.
How do you tune out your little mind?
You need to differentiate your little mind vs. your real self/love. You’ve got to realize which voice is talking. Once you realize which voice you’re listening to then you can tune out that little voice for realization is the first key to anything. Then, you’ll need to constantly set an intention to act only from love and to only listen to love. You can say to yourself a lot, “I am living from love/my higher self/the Universe/whatever you want to call it.” When that little mind starts talking repeat that mantra or simply just focus on something else. Once you do this enough, it will get very quiet and won’t bother you as much. It will always be there, but you won’t even dwell on it. It will have no power over you.
How do I listen to the synchronicities?
Again, the first step is you need to realize them. They are happening all around you, you just can’t see them or you choose not to. Open your eyes fully. Once you see one you’ve got to fully grasp its message. If you’re living from your soul this will take you two seconds. Your soul knows, you’ll have this strong knowing and it will just make perfect sense. Then you’ve got to act on it, once you know the message don’t ignore it or the Universe will slap you on the head (metaphorically and for your benefit). Trust your heart and your soul not that nagging little mind and go for it. As crazy as it may seem always remember that the Universe has your best interest in mind.
How do my thoughts create my reality?
Your thoughts hold more power than you know. The Universe is always listening to you and acting upon your thoughts. The Universe doesn’t hear negatives. For example if you say, “I don’t want to lose this,” the Universe hears, “I want to lose this.” And the Universe doesn’t stop at just hearing what you say, it acts on it immediately. Everything is connected and things conspire to make a reality. The reality you live in doesn’t just happen. It is shaped by your thoughts, beliefs and visions. When you catch yourself thinking negatively or about things you don’t want, don’t freak out. Take a deep breathe and think of what you do want. Don’t pay attention to the tricks your little mind plays, pay attention to the magic the Universe presents you with.
I hope this helps you on your journey of life! I’ll be doing more articles like this for I think it makes things super clear and hopefully it is very helpful. I feel like my younger and fearful self is asking the questions and the person I am now is answering them. Comment with any questions you want answered. Be fearless and free -Ace
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Dear Universe:
Oh what an eye opening year it has been. There has been so much growth, awakening, vibrational shifts and courage during this weird time. That’s looking from the positive side which I’ll admit has been a little tricky at times. I think we all have our days Universe, but it is those days I see most of my growth comes from. It is hard not to feel stuck, trapped, tricked, duped and sad. But I understand we must rise and I’ve definitely learned how to do that.
Thank you for showing me the power of our vibration as individuals and as a collective. There is only one way out of this three-dimensional world and that way is a high vibration. When digging for truth and diving into darkness it can be energy draining and shattering to the core of your being but that moment when you can’t even believe what you’re realizing is the moment where true awakening happens. The lies make sense and the deception becomes a little more clear. Thank you for guiding me on my perfect journey to see the darkness but then to emerge from it and shine my light.
I think those “down” days make the “good” days better. And when I say down days, I mean from learning much of the world is a lie and that we’re trapped in this prison-like society that is presented to us as freedom. Without those hard days there would be no growth or truth for you’d be a part of living the lie. I remember in the beginning of my journey of seeing truth, during those hard days it seemed as if there was not light, hope, goodness or like minded people to focus on. It seemed as if I was alone.
Thank you Universe for showing me that was not true and that this world has so much light in it. Thank you for giving me the fire and burning desire in my soul to spread love and truth, to shine my light and to share my thoughts, advice, writing, poetry and creativity with the world. The support, love and light I’ve received on the platforms I share my work on has made this journey a little more exciting, my soul a little more complete and my heart a little more at peace. I hope people realize that there is always a light at the end of the tunnel and even during the darkest of dark days you can always hold onto a little bit of light. Because no matter how dark things get, just an ounce of light can eliminate all darkness.
I will continue to put my full trust into you and to inspire others to do the same. Thank you for always being by my side on this journey and even when I didn’t believe in you, trust you or completely see you I appreciate you showing me synchronicity after synchronicity and for helping me grow. Life is so much more exciting with you around and once I realized everything in my life has a purpose and a reason it made even the little and seemingly not important moments that much more exciting. I am excited for what is to come in this year, the truth that will be shared and the ascension that I for sure know is taking place. For now, I will continue to pursue my purpose which is to spread love, shine light and be that fearless and free soul that inspires others to be their best selves. To many more adventures and rides on this journey! Thank you Universe for everything, truly. -Ace
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Every choice you make, every moment you live and every breath you take you decide to live from love or fear. It is completely your choice and within your control. Every emotion is love or fear and every thought is love or fear; it may seem like there is more to it but really, it is love or fear. Especially right now, to live from love is of major importance. This world is surrounded by too much fear, darkness and division. We are not shown the countless acts of love, kindness, light and in general good things I know this world is full of.
You cannot fake love; to fake it would be to act from fear. Your heart will know if you’re genuinely acting from a place of love, kindness, compassion and light. Love always makes you feel good, always. We are loving, compassionate and strong beings. We are not what the media tells us we are or what our little mind likes to trick us with.
In the core of your being and in the goodness of you heart you know you are pure love, more powerful than you know and compassionate to yourself and to others.
AceI encourage you today (and always) to be conscious of your decision making, the way you live and the person you decide to be in every moment. Think to yourself, am I doing this out of love or fear? Am I living this moment with love or fear? Do I recognize love or fear in this situation?
That last question is super important. Especially with the media’s influence in our lives and their consistent encouragement to not form our own opinions, to live from fear and to see only one side. When you look into someone’s eyes what do you see? If you read a media headline how does it make you feel? When you’re in the middle of a tough situation what are you going to act from? You can only see in others what you have in you; this is big. We are all made of love and fear. Think from your own mind, not others and not your little mind. Make your own decisions and form your own opinions from love. And if you do see fear, don’t combat it with fear; be your loving self and act from love because that is how you vanquish fear.
Today, set your intention to be pure love, to spread love, to see love in all and if you do see fear continue to act from love and do your best to be that ray of light that vanquishes darkness completely. And once you do this today continue it for days and days to come.
To act from love is liberating, to act from fear is imprisoning.
AceI hope this helps you on your journey! Love is all their is in this world; fear is a grand illusion. Fear helps us be courageous, free and see the power of love but to stay stuck in it forever is very harmful. You will feel so good when you let love engulf you and when love is the only emotion you act from. Be the light, be love. And always be fearless and free. -Ace
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