Fearless Free Soul

Connection’s Touch

March 17th, 2021

I sit down and open my drafts. I let the page stay blank as I look around for something to spark a wave of emotion or inspiration. My shell collection speaks to me first, then my inspiration board loses me in another daydream. Filled with meaningful words people have said to me and poems of my soul’s, I travel to far away timelines and thought cycles. Some words sting and some bring a smile, I guess I’ve found my writing topic.

A friend who’s exited my reality, a coach who’s forever gone but still in my heart, a friend who fades and glimmers, my parents who are my home, my sibling who’s an eternal friend and a friend who’s here but not – A me who is always grateful. No matter what memories come to mind or emotions come to the surface, my heart still bursts with overwhelming gratitude. Yes, I’ve been hurt a lot and challenged in many relationships; but, after many lessons, I’ve learned that gratitude, acceptance and forgiveness is always the answer. Connection means the most to me in this entire world and relationships have taught me oh so much; I feel as though connection is always such a synchronicity. The Universe brings people into your life for a time, a season or a forever and those people are stepping stones in your journey – always.

My eyes drift to some of my poems – oh I know it’s my writing, but is it really? When I write, I express and when I express something comes out of me. That something, I think, is the purest me and the purest form of the Universe – my soul. This channeling is a different type of connection, it’s the connection to all the fragments of me in every dimension, reality, life and galaxy – it’s where I feel at home. I can get this connection on the tennis court, my second home, through the vibration of the adrenaline. But, when I’m writing it’s much more powerful – the two homes balance each other out. Both are expressive and have their own unique flow and without tennis, I wouldn’t be writing and without writing, I wouldn’t enjoy tennis as much.

I think the reason my inspiration board is inspiring to me, is that it always lets me reflect in a million different daydreams. I can look back on those vivid experiences of emotions when someone said that, or when I channeled a certain piece or the many different journeys I’ve been on in my infinite journey. It’s always important to have some quiet time and sit with yourself. In these conversations I have with myself, sometimes the most random things pop up, but, all these conversations have one thing in common – I always come to this place of peace of how much I’ve grown. I’m sure there will be a day I read this in the future and have that same experience. Self love lets your soul blossom and your heart smile, so, give yourself a little twinkle each day and illuminate your being!

Because you can reflect and reflect, those memories aren’t always perfect, but, YOU are always worth the time to connect.

Be fearless and free -Ace
love’s note

March 16th, 2021

It’s always you
Seeing me for me no matter the view
Guiding the way through and through
Ever since we truly met
I can’t forget
You’re one of a kind
And when the synchronicities align
Your hug gives me the most joy
Today I’m showering you with my love
You’re my magical little dove
Always inside, below and above
When I believe, I turn up the heat on our stove
For a while you drove
But then freedom hit and I took the reigns
You’re always there to tell me when to change lanes

It’s always you
Shining a light on those days I grew
You’re my glue
Even when I was scared
You never flew
You’ve been with me through every lifetime
And will be through every experience that’s new
You know it’s never been easy
“It” being trust
But you illuminated my stardust
Took away the rust
And taught me how to be free
You gave me the vision that doesn’t just allow me to see
But to unlock the truth key

It’s always you
Thank you for being my infinite crew
And for being there no matter what life I debut

Of course, I’ve always been talking to you Universe, me

Be fearless and free – Ace
Playing With Life

March 15th, 2021

Twilight’s glow illuminates the sparks of my soul within. I feel the tiger in my heart, the mountains of my foundation, the wind of my vibration, the shooting stars of my emotions, the ocean of my being, the trees of my intuition and the force of the Universe in my soul.

As I look around at the dirt below me, the floating leaves above, the blooming flowers all around, the brush of the sun on my back and the caress of nature’s touch, I realize I am them all. I am the soil and the sky for we are the Universe. In me, they see themselves and in them I see me. It’s this relationship of the heart that I cherish because I know the me in them will never let me down and they feel the same. We are all the Universe, with different labels and shapes, but, purely we are one.

There’s another point of view that comes to mind though. The concrete below, the wallpaper of a sky above, the controlled wind and weather, the chemicals harming the plants and the blockage of the sun – I realize that maybe I am living in someone’s vision, someone’s dream. As I let my perception play, I see that this life is just a dream in which I am lucid and practicing a life. This hologram of world is a test for my soul; will I wake up out of this dream or will I play into the false concepts of evils at play?

These perceptions battle in my head and honestly, I don’t mind it. I love to let my mind explore and my thoughts wander – because that freedom is slowly being taken away from us. No matter which feels more true, I always know I believe in love. If this Universe is the magic I hope it to be, the love in me will thrive. If this is all just a dream, a test, the love in me will thrive. I am perfectly me no matter what and I will continue to grow whether this reality is really real or not. I accept that there are no answers except what I believe to be true and I cherish this journey to allow my soul to grow. Thank you, soul, for letting me venture this lifetime with you – let’s see where this path takes us!

I love this piece as it starts off with a prose flow of writing and ends with my deep, honest and personal thoughts. These points of view in my head battle daily and I shift my beliefs quite often, some days one feels more real than the other and vice versa. I always come back to love and trust, I truly believe the test of this life is to fulfill our mission without knowing all the answers because it’s in the unknowing where we choose which life to live – fearless or fearful.

Be fearless and free -Ace
clue

March 13th, 2021

What if we lived life through the beat of our hearts?
Each beat with its own purpose, its own fire
Then time would be the ultimate liar
The rhythm of our hearts creating life’s magical choir
That’s our missing wire
The illusion of time and this construct of a world
Teaches us to forget
When our soul and heart first met
The day they came together and created YOU
This whole journey began and was put into view
Maybe this is lifetime #122
Or you’re a part of infinite’s crew
No matter what, your soul chose to be here
I can feel your smile as you read this loud and clear
Or maybe it’s a happy tear
You know deep down you’re here for a reason
Not just a lifetime nor a season
Your journey is immortal
This is simply just a test
Rise above the lies, deception and all the rest
Fulfill your mission and do your personal best
You are making yourself proud
Stand a part from the crowd
Do what your soul came here to do
This life is just your journey’s clue
Ace
Reflecting My Glass

March 12th, 2021

I look in the mirror, and smile at my reflection. Sometimes, I feel I’m just looking at myself, other times I feel I’m looking at a me from far away. I put my hand on the glass and soak in the chill, then I close my eyes and play my reflection back in my head. I start to form some words to say to myself, but, I know the me in my reflection already knows what I have to say. So, I open my eyes and smile as I watch the glass illuminate the sparkle in my eyes and the twinkle in my teeth. I turn the lights off, shut the door and leave that experience waiting for more.

I pick up the shard of glass and watch the light dance on it. First comes purple, reminding me of that thing that makes me happy-sad. Then green shines through the sharp corner, reminding me of that experience that makes me euphoric. Those colors disappear, blue takes over and I sink into the floor; it reminds me of the moments I have alone, just me, myself and I. As the blue exits, yellow enters and brings a smile to my face for a reason unknown. Yellow moves to the upper left corner of this jagged shard and pink starts to dance; the pink reminds me of all the days love taught me to let go. Through my window, the sun sets and the dark night sky takes over. My shard becomes clear again, and I rise from the floor; this experience is one I’ll remember for sure.

The glass breaks and the sound sends a charge through my body. A million pieces scatter on the floor, funny enough, they remind me of my own glass pieces. Each shard has its own energy, personality and glow. But, when they’re together, they create something beautiful and unique of their own. I flash the two memories back and forth – the whole piece of glass and the million broken shards. But, are they really broken? Or are they in their natural form? As I’m cleaning up this so called mess, I change my thought perception. What if on my whole days I’m still a million broken shards, but they just create something a little more beautiful? And what if on the days when the shards of glass stay shards, I’m just being more vulnerable and real?

I’ve had glass analogies running in my head for quite some time now! I really like each of these outlooks, they are unique and different, but, there’s that something that pulls them all together! Which analogy resonates the most with you? I’d so love to hear!! I think I’ll forever have a different perspective whenever I see glass! I hope this helps you on your journey!! Be fearless and free -Ace
piecing us together

March 11th, 2021

What if I had changed?
What if you waited too long?
And the me you knew had gone?
Would it have hurt or burn?
Or would it have just been a lesson to learn?
I was there waiting at every door
Said the twists and turns in my core
You took me on adventures to soar
Thought you let me fall when I needed you most
I saw you on the coast
And you whispered that you were there
While the wind blew through my hair
I ignored you, because your voice hit me like bricks
I thought you were playing tricks
And then you appeared in that dream
I guess you know me too well
I don’t even know why I was mad
Or maybe it was the distance that made me sad
I wished you could’ve just sped things up a tad
I know everything is meant to be
But why does time have to become a lost key?
I fell into my little mind’s game
But it’s not me I’m going to blame
I’ve done it too much to make that move again
Instead, I let it go and thanked you
Turns out, we’re always learning something new
I remembered my perception can sometimes be askew
My impatience doesn’t need to turn into a mental zoo
Alternatively, I can look through the eyes you view
While I put my trust to the test and collect what’s true
Ace

This poem is an interesting one. I think there are two meanings to it; one that resonates is taking a trip down the lane of my past! This piece starts as my present self asking the Universe what if I had changed and you were too late, and then it goes into my days of doubt in the Universe. Writing on a real past conversation I had in my head, there was a day I was walking on the coastline of a beach and I heard the Universe’s voice, but, I pushed it to the side. That day actually taught me to start listening and facing my feelings more; so, the piece ends with the lessons I learned. The second meaning could be about a relationship in my life; as I was reading this poem, I was flashed some memories about it and came to some new realizations. I really like the way it turned out; the mystery and vulnerability within it lets the words come together a bit more. Normally when I write poems, I finish it and it is complete, but, this one I edited a few times as the double meaning had me running in circles a bit! I hope this helps you on your journey! Be fearless and free -Ace
Circles

March 9th, 2021

These two circles given the name, “eyes”, illuminate my entire world. But my perception gives them their power, for even if I was blind, I could still see through the voices in my mind. Over the years, through the months and with each day; my eyes have stayed an ocean of blue although they’ve endured many big waves. When I close these two circles, all labels fall and peace overpowers. When I open these two circles, my purpose turns on and my mission’s voice speaks.

I rub my hands together in a circular motion like the dance of life; as if I’m a wizard concocting a spell. I close my eyes and see my hands, I release the motion and the ball of light has been created. I send it off with a message and let its energy charge my body and soul, this new fuel is the electricity I know my being has been thirsty for.

Ethereal, bright, illuminated, and alive; I feel my aura protecting me. My aura shines brightly enough for others to feel but, it’s always there hugging me close. I sense its purple hue following me, its glow lighting up my heart and its touch igniting my soul’s flame letting it speak loud and clear.

Outside of all these circles, I feel my bubble. This little reality bubble that is impenetrable and invisible to the eye, but, alive to the heart. I believe in the beauty of my bones that I create every ounce of my reality and with this bubble separating me from the outside world, I am truly free. This drive within, this passion in my heartbeat and this radiance in my smile all comes from my bubble – it’ll never pop as long as my belief stays true.

Be fearless and free -Ace
The Bitter Series

March 8th, 2021

you’re willing to bet

You believed in me when I didn’t
You nudged me along when I was stuck
I don’t think that’s just luck
You’re the spirit in that duck
And the life force to nature’s creation
You’re the largest eternal nation
And a piece of you has rested in me
It wasn’t until with open eyes I began to see
You challenged me for a reason
And loved me through every season
Just as I planted a seed in your soil
Our connection will never spoil
Like an everlasting love coil
Together we shine
And remind each other we are the divine
I see you in every sign
And feel you in our forever bloodline
Caught in this universal net
From the day we met
To the day this life is set
You’re willing to bet
Ace

you’re probably right

Life is short, you’re probably right

Life is more than this lifetime, you’re probably right

Your destiny is in your hands, you’re probably right

Your dreams only remain dreams, you’re probably right

You are a fragment, you’re probably right

You are the infinite Universe, you’re probably right

Love is all there is, you’re probably right

This reality is just an illusion, you’re probably right

I am your mind’s eye, you’re probably right

I am who I choose to be, you’re probably right

Because whatever you believe, you’re probably right

Ace

you’re in my head every night, every night

Memories and flashes
Fire and ashes
Reality crashes
This horizon clashes
The light and the dark
Battle for who makes their mark
The night wins this race
And it’s the dream I can’t wait to face
I lay my head to rest
Thoughts swirl about today’s part in my quest
I feel blessed
Upon this universal test
There are days I ace
There are days I rely on my foundational base
But every day, I have this pillow and bed
Awaiting my head
And a story I haven’t read
I enter the dream dimension
My reality’s extension
I feel my higher self seeking my attention
Letting me ride this ascension
This cycle repeats
Each time I embrace these warm sheets
The Universe and I have many little visits or meets
Beyond sight
Through light
Quite bright
You’re in my head every night, every night
Ace

These three poems are brought together for a specific reason; without each other they wouldn’t exist. One of these poems has made its second appearance as it brings them all together. What’s your favorite poem of this series? I’d so love to hear!! Be fearless and free -Ace
Dear Universe:

March 7th, 2021

Dear Universe:

Life is but a blink of an eye to you, but to me, life is eternity’s wish. Eternity’s wish has been good to me lately, sure, I have my ups and downs, but, my solid foundation is always there to support me. You and I worked so long at building that foundation and now that it’s there, I feel a little more at home. I still wish the ground wouldn’t shake as much when little storms cloud my brain; but, I know I’m on the right track.

Relationships have taken me on a ride recently, boy have I learned a lot. I am so grateful to you, I’ve grown so much internally through these relationship rides and I’ve learned to process emotions, feelings, thoughts and instincts in a way that honors my soul. I thank you endlessly for these gifts of education. I realize life is about living, learning, failing and getting back up again because the ups and downs are what I chose when I chose this life.

I wish I could wrap my arms around the world and entrance people in the warm embrace of connection. I feel the energy of so many beings and I wish there was more I could do in this world. My purpose is starting to yell at me again, the last time it did, I started this blog. So, I guess we’ll see what comes next.

Somedays, I feel like a flowing river, other days solid ice and sometimes a sharp icicle. The river days are usually the ones where I feel so at peace and twinkly about life, as if miracle after miracle shines brighter and brighter. I guess the best way to describe it is those days when the sparkle in my eye illuminates the reality I see making it my dream. The solid ice days are the ones where I feel a little lost and meh, so, I stand firmly on my solid block of ice; my foundation. It’ll never crack, the years of freezing the water of my foundation make it so. And the icicle days are the in-between days, when I feel sort of solid, a little watery but sharp in knowing my boundaries.

One thing is for sure, I always see you. No matter what day I’m having or what lesson I’m learning, your effervescent glow shines out of my being and through the visions my eyes present. I am truly grateful for you. Look at us, what a journey we’ve been through! I have one thing to ask you, you know I love my questions! Are all the dreams I still dream and thoughts I still hope to become true…are they truly going to be reality?

Ace

You know that answer
you’re probably right

March 5th, 2021

Life is short, you’re probably right

Life is more than this lifetime, you’re probably right

Your destiny is in your hands, you’re probably right

Your dreams only remain dreams, you’re probably right

You are a fragment, you’re probably right

You are the infinite Universe, you’re probably right

Love is all there is, you’re probably right

This reality is just an illusion, you’re probably right

I am your mind’s eye, you’re probably right

I am who I choose to be, you’re probably right

Because whatever you believe, you’re probably right

This piece is a little different from my usual poetry. With a similar style to, flavor, these two pieces are both inspired by the same song. It’s funny how different words resonate at different times when you need to hear them. I hope this helps you on your journey and I’d so love to hear your thoughts on this lyric style of poetry! Be fearless and free -Ace