Category: romance

a different me

April 7th, 2023

music holds a memory
like a flower cradles its seed
the way one beat
takes me back to a timeline
the way the song title alone
takes me back to a version of you
a playlist for every mood
a playlist for every chapter of my life
relationships in their every wave
competing in all the different ways it has defined me
living as all the pieces of me finding each other
when failing felt like pain instead of progress
and when I look back through every playlist
memories fold on top of each other
words blend from my experiences to her lyrics
then the present hits me
and there’s a weird realization of sitting in my now
could I make a song from 2017 new again?
could I change the way a memory sticks?
as the chorus becomes a crescendo
a voice asks, “do you need it to change?”
if there’s beauty in who you are now
why would the past ever need to change?

-Grace
space

March 14th, 2023

What lives in between
all the u n f i n i s h e d sentences?
What remains alive in
all the u n s e n t messages?
What feels so real
in the moments we d o u b t?
What is so p r e t e n d
in being driven by an inner route?

There’s s p a c e
in every chase
Nothing is ever done
just in a phase of being s p u n
There’s a specific s u r g e
in showing up beyond an urge
There’s a true l o v e
flying inside, not above

Making my own definition of romance
the rush of being your own c h a n c e
Falling in love with the p r o c e s s
of trusting myself, not the stress
They say “when you know, you know”
but they forgot “when you g r o w, you glow”
Everyone’s busy looking for the o n e
but that person is within if you don’t run

-Grace
doors

January 3rd, 2023

turn the handle
hear the soft creak
take a deep breath
put one foot through
take one more breath
see what seems true
observe all the rest
leave the door behind
learn a few lessons
walk a few steps
venture too far
hit a wall
find the door again
lock it, no look back
hear a knock
over and over
easy to know who
with thumps so familiar
yet the door remains closed
then the sound becomes
more of a ring
and the heart listens
thinking bout turning the lock
ring ring ring ring
walk up to the door
feel the handle
walk away
walk back to the door
take a deep breath
open it once again
put one foot through
and pause
say one’s piece
make peace
with what’s beyond
the door
hear it almost close
behind thyself
take a deep breath
and wonder
how many doors
will stay open
how many doors
will stay closed
how many doors
will stay in-between
-Grace

Author’s Note – A little bit of a different style for me, but I wanted to play around with words…that is the beauty of writing after all :).

Often, I’ve felt comfort in hearing a door close and I’m learning to love hearing a door open. Doors open and close in life, it’s always kind of interesting to watch the journey. So cheers to finding peace in whichever way the door moves.
a piece of her-story

December 27th, 2022

Almost like a replay of my past

Part of a feeling that didn’t last
It’s funny how a connection can feel so vast
Enter a different timeline, find a new broadcast
Cut to the chase, maybe we rushed it
Exactly when did we breathe and trust it

Objectively, we looked like a glass unshattered
Feelings underneath told a story more scattered

History is more than a written script
Editing the now to feel like we clicked
Reading our story, when was I tricked

–

Sometimes I knew I was making it more
Trusting the feelings change in my core
Oceans of rocky waves always hit this shore
Ready to experience, I’m glad I felt it before
Yet it’s time to let go, time to soar

-Grace

Author’s Note – Acrostic poetry is a poem where the first letter of every line creates a phrase/sentence of its own, and I absolutely love writing in this form. The phrase here is “a piece of her-story”. If you break out the word history, it becomes his-story, so her-story is a play on that.

This is my story of a recent relationship lesson; I find relationships often are our best teachers even if it’s hard to see at first. It’s also a bit of a continuing thought from my last piece “this is what i’ve learned about love.”

I sat with this piece for a while as I was still figuring out “her story”, but I know it now and writing this was like a form of getting closure. If you’re reading this today, thank you for reading but also, take this as your sign to express what’s in your heart no matter what it is…closure is never found outside, it is always within.
this is what i’ve learned about love

December 24th, 2022

It’s all there is, all there ever was and all that will truly be. It has no end or beginning, no right or wrong way. There’s a certain flow you can feel, one that has no words or labels, but one that swims freely in the oceans of our now.

There’s a star I look at every night. And I think about all the people I’ve ever loved and wonder if they look too. I wonder if it’s the love in the star I’m seeing or the love of my journey I’m feeling. There’s that cheesy line that comes to mind that we’re all made of stardust, but more vulernably, we’re all made of what we trust.

I used to wonder if she would come out, the woman I looked up to inside of me. The firewood was always there, but it was about lighting the match. I forced it a few times, I pictured it many times – but it only took one time to choose to be her in every day. And the funny part is, she never knew when the timing would be right, but I did.

If there’s anything real in this world, it’s what keeps us breathing. Everything around us could be fabricated by our perception or some force bigger, but what’s within will always be real somewhere. There’s no clear answer; that’s ours to create. But the question will always be clear because something inside already wrote it.

This is what I’ve learned about love.

-Grace
back to you

January 7th, 2021

Oh connection
So many days I craved you
Felt you near but so far too
Look at us now
Holy cow!
You’ve engulfed my days
In so many ways
Thank you isn’t enough
Been through some stuff
Never thought I’d feel so close to you
On those days I felt so blue
I sent my wishes and they flew
You got my message
And delivered a presage
First came him
Super unexpected
But something connected
Here we are still
Lots of moments have been a thrill
I think right now we’re missing you
But it’ll be back
We’re on the right track
Then came her
Started slow
Then came talks for days in a row
Fun for a certain time
Just recently I said goodbye
I’m not mad at you
I actually want to say thank you
For keeping my circle real
And the truth near
Next you brought me this community
Providing me with so much unity
I feel so blessed
I would’ve never guessed
How many beautiful souls
Came knocking on my door
I opened it and asked for more
So many amazing conversations
Turning into lots of real relations
Through it came her
A definite spark
The Universe aligned us
Feel like we can talk about anything
Even though many miles keep us apart
Many smiles come to my heart
Then came him
Perfect timing
Starting to hit our stride
Enjoying this fun ride
I think this is just the beginning
And there’s much ahead
It’s just what the Universe said
Through it all
Has been my rock, my family
Been with me since I was born
And will be with me till the end of time
It’s harder to make these words rhyme
It just means my heart is so alive
My family, I thank you
I know it’s not nearly enough
I could write endless poems about each of you
That is definitely true
I always love you, my forever glue
To Ace, it’s all inside
Love yourself, and they come
Felt like a while to be able to say
I love you
But now that you’re there
It’s all about continuing to care
Whenever there is a tare
Come back to honesty, communication and love
Connection is always floating above
This poem is too long
But the words are flowing like a song
Connection, I see, hear and thank you
Making my life complete
And my vibe most often upbeat
Even in the tough phases
My soul raises
I will always find my way through
Back to you
Ace
i hear you

January 3rd, 2021

Trigger after trigger
Makes my ears ring
Taking a deep breath
I stay grounded
My heart well rounded
Understanding different opinions
But rooted to my own
Sitting in my energy zone
Feeling my mind and my soul alone
Words come and go
Feelings bring me joy and woe
Heart continues to pound
But I’m always listening
To what he says
Or she says
But mainly to what I say
It’s all that matters
Triggers can try their best
But I will conquer and let them rest
All will work out
I shall not pout
Right now, it might hurt
But I’ll get up
Cause that’s all I can do
Always knew
There’d be these days
Where I’d feel tossed around in many ways
But that spirit inside is alive
It never dies
Pain doesn’t scare me
One + One, Two
Pain + Love, I grew
The point of the Universe’s test
Is to not fall into stress
Remember I’m blessed
This is all part of the quest
I’m not mad at him
Or her
It will all be fine
I’m just listening to the voice that’s mine
This much is true
Because I hear you
Ace
Saying Goodbye To 2020

December 31st, 2020

Dear 2020:

On this last day with you, all the memories I’ve made this year come crashing in, the tremendous amount I’ve grown this year makes me smile and the dreams that have come true sends a rush through my being. I honestly can’t believe this is it with you, this year has seemed long at times and very fast at other times. To some, you may have been an annoying and tough year but, to me you have been an eye opening and truth-filled year that I will forever be grateful for.

You’ve changed my life in so many ways. To start, you woke me up out of the dream of lies this world is full of. You gave the truth a new meaning this year and with that truth came true freedom. In the beginning, I’ll admit, it wasn’t easy. I felt like my whole world had been rocked and my dreams too, but then came the gratitude, freedom and drive to make a difference. The truth has truly become my best friend and I wouldn’t want it any other away, I am so grateful to be really alive. I will never sleep again, being alive gives me purpose and makes my fire inside light up the world. So, thank you for all the truth you’ve brought to me, that’s just one way you changed my life and me.

Another way you’ve changed my life and I, is by making my dream of having a website/blog come true. There was no better time than with you to make my dream a reality and I am so so grateful to you. This website has brought me so much comfort, connection and freedom. The people I’ve gotten to connect with through my blog has been truly amazing, I never thought I’d get to have the pleasure of connecting with such beautiful souls from across the world. Writing is my best friend, I’ve spent so so many hours typing/creating away. My debut album, my story, my future sophomore album and all the posts in between will be a part of my heart and soul forever, thank you for that. I can’t believe it has only been four months of blogging, I feel like this website has been inside of me forever. I’ve grown so much mentally and emotionally and I think that credit goes to you, for both bringing this website and the truth into my life.

Yet another way you’ve change my life and I, is by bringing a much needed balance to my life. Tennis and being an athlete is my passion, but so is writing and helping raise the frequency of this planet. Combining both, plus spending time in nature, being with my family, connecting with my friends and just the everyday things in life I got to enjoy more this year, really has brought me true balance. I know in my soul that all the writing and creating really has helped the athlete side of me grow and get better and the athlete side of me has helped my words have so much depth and meaning to them. Without the athlete, I wouldn’t be fearless and free and without the writer, I wouldn’t be as joyous or alive. I truly thank you for the harmony you’ve created in my life through the balance of both sides of me, I truly feel that in each day I thrive.

I have to be honest and say that this year with you hasn’t been all sunny and bright, there have been some rough and dark days. But I know in my gut that without those tough days, the bright days wouldn’t mean as much and I definitely wouldn’t have grown. It is in the dark I have truly chosen to evolve and to come out stronger. Another way you have changed my life and I, is by showing me what it really means to love myself and to believe in myself. With that newfound love and belief in myself, I can truly see that those tough days shaped me into the unique light that I am. Those days taught me how to shine my light and how to be strong in the weirdest of times. I think vibration and energy also have a new meaning to me this year, thanks to you. I feel so much more in touch with my energy, much more control over my energy partly due to cutting out sugar from life completely and I definitely can read other’s energy much much better. I even got the experience of seeing other’s auras which was fascinating. I am authentically myself, no matter how much that person changes, I am my true self every single day. I am so hard on myself and giving myself credit isn’t the easiest thing in the world, but, I can say with full truth that I am really proud of the fearless and free soul I am.

2020, I hate to say goodbye, you really have brought me so much. I know you’ve been treated poorly at times but, I get your message and I see you. I know the truth is your purpose and I will always remember you for that. Thank you for the joy, love, truth, comfort, connection and growth you have brought me. Thank you for strengthening my relationships with my family and friends and thank you for showing me that dreams and thoughts do become reality; I’ve always believed that and I always will. 2020, the Universe, thank you. -Ace
still thinking

December 13th, 2020

I let my thoughts wander in my head
Before I went to bed
Guess I took some to my dreams
Showing me things
I don’t know I want to see
Not that it’s all bad
Just the uncertainty
Sometimes drives me mad
It is indeed you I see
Will these dreams come to be?
Or is it footage just clogging my brain
Sinking down an endless drain
Even if it’s just a show
Most moments aren’t too low
Looking down the row
Of the thoughts you created
Down the hall of my mind
I watch the Universe
Pick which past or future to show
No matter what
It always shows me something that’s good
Somedays I wake up steaming
Somedays I wake up gleaming
Somedays I wake up dreaming
I could live in the dream instead
You confuse me
Because I wonder why you still take space in my mind
But you I enjoy seeing
I just wish you were still being
And you I ask to see
So, thanks for coming to be
I see the signs
All the different kinds
This poem was supposed to bring me clarity
But that’s a rarity
So, I’m still wondering
Will some of these dreams come true?
Or is it just a show of my ever-changing point of view?
Ace

This poem took me a while to write, I had so many thoughts and condensing them into lines that rhyme was tough, but I saw the potential in this piece so I kept going. I really love this poem, it has a lot of special meaning to me. I believe so much in dreams, but they still leave me with much to think about. I hope this helps you on your journey and reminds you to take a look into your dreams. Be fearless and free -Ace
Goodbye Pain, Hello Joy

December 9th, 2020
Hello friends!!! Today’s post is all about joy and smiling! I know a lot of people are struggling with some type of pain right now, whether physical, emotional or mental, I get it. But pain is ultimately just an illusion, labels give it power, but YOU are so strong, I know it!! So, today I’m going to share some past pieces of mine to help you rise, smile and say goodbye to pain.

To Start – Some Videos From My Debut Album, IMAGINE + REALITY

This is video is called Movie Making, it’s all about making your life the best movie by remembering that you’re the director, the Universe is your co-producer and at any time you can rewrite your script. I love the music, it’s very joyful and upbeat! I feel like this video is very relatable and a good reminder to take your life back into your own hands.

This video is called Amaze and it is the last video on my album. It kind of flows perfectly from Movie Making because it is all about happy endings! Happy endings, not just in the end of life, but in every single situation! Pain might be with you right now, but envision your happy ending, it will come to be in your reality because thoughts become reality. Imagine what you want to see in your reality, imagination is reality, hence the purpose of my album.

IMAGINE + REALITY – The Full Album

Above is the link to all the videos from the album, if you need a little more inspiration or motivation, that’s the place to find it!
And of course, there had to be some funny images! This frog cracks me up, his eyes are too weird! 😂 Smiles literally light up your heart, I hope this makes you smile!
Your thoughts fuel your body, feed your mind the best food and watch your body release all pain, and fear. Tap into your heart and realize your true power!!!
We’re born

Taught to survive

Forgetting how to thrive

Our childhood spark

Loses its magic

Because we forget

It’s right here

And always near

Don’t fear

It never dissapears

Find that spark

And make your mark

-Ace

Had to end this with a new poem, so I lied, this post isn’t only my past pieces! 😂 I hope these videos, images and this poem brought you laughter, joy, smiles and was a little escape from reality! I believe in you, you’ve truly got this!!

Which piece was your favorite?? Much love to you all. Be fearless and free -Ace