Trigger after trigger
Makes my ears ring
Taking a deep breath
I stay grounded
My heart well rounded
Understanding different opinions
But rooted to my own
Sitting in my energy zone
Feeling my mind and my soul alone
Words come and go
Feelings bring me joy and woe
Heart continues to pound
But I’m always listening
To what he says
Or she says
But mainly to what I say
It’s all that matters
Triggers can try their best
But I will conquer and let them rest
All will work out
I shall not pout
Right now, it might hurt
But I’ll get up
Cause that’s all I can do
Always knew
There’d be these days
Where I’d feel tossed around in many ways
But that spirit inside is alive
It never dies
Pain doesn’t scare me
One + One, Two
Pain + Love, I grew
The point of the Universe’s test
Is to not fall into stress
Remember I’m blessed
This is all part of the quest
I’m not mad at him
Or her
It will all be fine
I’m just listening to the voice that’s mine
This much is true
Because I hear you
Ace
Tag: journey
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Dear 2020:
On this last day with you, all the memories I’ve made this year come crashing in, the tremendous amount I’ve grown this year makes me smile and the dreams that have come true sends a rush through my being. I honestly can’t believe this is it with you, this year has seemed long at times and very fast at other times. To some, you may have been an annoying and tough year but, to me you have been an eye opening and truth-filled year that I will forever be grateful for.
You’ve changed my life in so many ways. To start, you woke me up out of the dream of lies this world is full of. You gave the truth a new meaning this year and with that truth came true freedom. In the beginning, I’ll admit, it wasn’t easy. I felt like my whole world had been rocked and my dreams too, but then came the gratitude, freedom and drive to make a difference. The truth has truly become my best friend and I wouldn’t want it any other away, I am so grateful to be really alive. I will never sleep again, being alive gives me purpose and makes my fire inside light up the world. So, thank you for all the truth you’ve brought to me, that’s just one way you changed my life and me.
Another way you’ve changed my life and I, is by making my dream of having a website/blog come true. There was no better time than with you to make my dream a reality and I am so so grateful to you. This website has brought me so much comfort, connection and freedom. The people I’ve gotten to connect with through my blog has been truly amazing, I never thought I’d get to have the pleasure of connecting with such beautiful souls from across the world. Writing is my best friend, I’ve spent so so many hours typing/creating away. My debut album, my story, my future sophomore album and all the posts in between will be a part of my heart and soul forever, thank you for that. I can’t believe it has only been four months of blogging, I feel like this website has been inside of me forever. I’ve grown so much mentally and emotionally and I think that credit goes to you, for both bringing this website and the truth into my life.
Yet another way you’ve change my life and I, is by bringing a much needed balance to my life. Tennis and being an athlete is my passion, but so is writing and helping raise the frequency of this planet. Combining both, plus spending time in nature, being with my family, connecting with my friends and just the everyday things in life I got to enjoy more this year, really has brought me true balance. I know in my soul that all the writing and creating really has helped the athlete side of me grow and get better and the athlete side of me has helped my words have so much depth and meaning to them. Without the athlete, I wouldn’t be fearless and free and without the writer, I wouldn’t be as joyous or alive. I truly thank you for the harmony you’ve created in my life through the balance of both sides of me, I truly feel that in each day I thrive.
I have to be honest and say that this year with you hasn’t been all sunny and bright, there have been some rough and dark days. But I know in my gut that without those tough days, the bright days wouldn’t mean as much and I definitely wouldn’t have grown. It is in the dark I have truly chosen to evolve and to come out stronger. Another way you have changed my life and I, is by showing me what it really means to love myself and to believe in myself. With that newfound love and belief in myself, I can truly see that those tough days shaped me into the unique light that I am. Those days taught me how to shine my light and how to be strong in the weirdest of times. I think vibration and energy also have a new meaning to me this year, thanks to you. I feel so much more in touch with my energy, much more control over my energy partly due to cutting out sugar from life completely and I definitely can read other’s energy much much better. I even got the experience of seeing other’s auras which was fascinating. I am authentically myself, no matter how much that person changes, I am my true self every single day. I am so hard on myself and giving myself credit isn’t the easiest thing in the world, but, I can say with full truth that I am really proud of the fearless and free soul I am.
2020, I hate to say goodbye, you really have brought me so much. I know you’ve been treated poorly at times but, I get your message and I see you. I know the truth is your purpose and I will always remember you for that. Thank you for the joy, love, truth, comfort, connection and growth you have brought me. Thank you for strengthening my relationships with my family and friends and thank you for showing me that dreams and thoughts do become reality; I’ve always believed that and I always will. 2020, the Universe, thank you. -Ace
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When 2020 began
2019 ran
I thought I knew my year
With my dream so near
But then the truth hit me
And I could no longer just be
I had to dig
And dive for answers
Because I realized lies
Were all this world presented
I don’t resent it
I just needed an alarm clock
To wake me up
As my world changed
And my dreams too
I kept fighting for you
That soul inside
Whose drive cried
To take place in my reality
Then this blog was born
Never thought I’d be here
Feeling the Universe so near
Blessed beyond words
To have connected with you
And to have a made a dream
Reality
Changing my mentality
And practicing my dimensionality
2020 has shaped me into a better version
Giving the truth my total immersion
I thank you
For helping me awaken
For being the friend I needed
For making dreams come true
For letting me grow
And teaching me how to glow
Every single day in a row
Ace -
Each breathe
Is a new chance
To give the truth a glance
It all starts with love
You can feel it’s force above
That something in the air
Love always makes you care
It’s not about fair
It’s all about feel
Don’t let others make you kneel
Stand in your truth
And be who you really are
Fake is not raw
It’s just a flaw
Simple to fix
Because love and fear just don’t mix
Diving deep in my soul
Until I feel whole
Intuition’s on a roll
I see me
I see you
I see truth
I see light
I see darkness
No matter what
I see
And I’m always truly me
Letting this feeling be
Just like a tree
Rooted to my truth
Growing each day
Shedding what needs to go
And sitting in the peace
That I am all
Fear will continue to fall
As I listen to my fire’s call
Because with the light on
No lies can stay
They’ll just float away
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I open the gate, and enter the climb. It’s as if I’ve entered this otherworldly vortex into the red rock. Speaking of the red rock, it surrounds me, everywhere I look, it’s there smiling down at me. The red rock has memories and spirit just like the trees and bushes, the clay that my shoes march on and the rocks that are stuck in the ground and loosely laying on the clay. The chilly air brushes past me as the sun tries to emerge from the clouds. Try as it might, the chill of the winter always comes strongly through, and I’m starting to enjoy it.
I start surrounded by red rock, the terrain and the crunch of my feet against the rough clay is one of my favorite sounds. I keep up my pace and breathe in the crisp air, the rock surrounding me, makes me feel at home, as though nothing can enter this magical little bubble I’m encapsulated in.
Then I meet the crossroads and enter a trail that’s lower to the ground. There’s more dirt here, and I’m just realizing I’ve entered a new bubble; the bubble of the majestic trees. I look up and all I see is the tops of long trees and a little hint of some more red rock. The air is cooler in this bubble, and the chill that runs through my spine awakens my soul. I’ve had visions of this foresty reality, it seems so familiar yet so new. I enjoy the feeling this place brings, it’s as if I’m in a scene in a movie. I put my hands on the rough bark and feel the soul of the tree, I hear it smiling down at me and inhaling my aura. I take my hand off the tree and keep walking, through the crunch of the leaves as the dirt runs into my shoes. Usually, the extra dirt would bother me but, I think it’s the energy in the air that makes me relax about it.
As I start the trek back, I move faster, the downhill terrain giving me momentum. But I try to slow down, I want to savor this moment with the trees, the dirt, the leaves, the red rock and the chill air. My soul feels so at peace and my mind is at ease, I realize my thoughts have evaporated during this entire walk. Maybe that’s my doing, or is yet again the magic of Sedona? I don’t look for an answer as I continue to enjoy the clear space in my head.
Before I know it, the four miles are up and this hike is over. It does feel different as I exit the bubble I was in for a few hours, I feel like I’ve entered the world again. Maybe this hike was a daydream or maybe it was an escape into a vortex, no matter what I will never forget the magic.
Be fearless and free -Ace
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4. In Sync – 1:49
In Sync was the first video I made for this album that came through me effortlessly, I was back in the zone. I love this video, the music is so perfect and I started to use special effects in here! I think the effects make it that much more entertaining and gives the words more life. I feel like this video represents how it feels to be in sync with the Universe, you. There are a few slides about feelings here because I feel like your emotions are the most direct way you can hear the Universe. Feelings are tricky because you need to face them to let them pass but you also don’t want to be trapped in them, it’s a balance like everything is in this life! But you always need to trust your feelings, always. I love this video, I knew as soon as I finished it, it would be my lead single. I think it brings everything together so nicely. Thanks for watching!! Track list coming soon 💛 -Ace
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You float in my mind
Like a never-ending river
It sometimes makes me shiver
I wish you could go away
Feeling small
Taking your call
Should’ve let it go to voicemail
But you left a trail
And I’m following
Since I’m stuck in your trap
Forgetting love’s map
When I begin to see again
I beat myself up for being too blind
Looking for love
But instead I watched my eyes find
Fear
Not the first time
Fear used to hold me tight
When I meet fear again
I’ll wave goodbye
Remember that it’s just a lie
I might say thank you
For showing me the gift of freedom
But I think I’ll stick with
Hi
And
Bye
It doesn’t deserve my magic
All those times it convinced me life was so tragic
Yet that wasn’t me
It was you
I feel you weakening and trying to grab me too
Bye bye fear
I’ll never let you near
The Universe, me
Is always right here
AceThis poem is very special to me, in my youth, fear had a tight hold on me. This poem starts as if I met fear again but I didn’t, it’s just recalling the experiences I’ve had with it. Then it goes to what I’ll say if I meet fear again, and somehow it gets to me actually talking to fear. I think it so important to face fear head on, so this poem was about forgiving myself for not doing so in the past and then actually doing it, because I’m strong now. I hope this helps you on your journey, be fearless and free -Ace
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Fear’s Invitation
My hesitation
To your invitation
Turns into my elevation
Of spirit, soul, and love
Locking your door
You’ll never get in anymore
I will always decline
And there’s nothing you can do to change my mind
AceI’ve been writing so many poems lately, this one came to me one night before I fell asleep. Micro poems are new to me, I like the long ones normally, but today this felt right. Expect more poems! If the title is lowercase then you’ll knows it’s a poem. I hope this helps you on your journey and reminds you to live your life fearlessly! And now for the releases 😁
In case you missed it, album #2 is on the way! The link above is my announcement video, it’s really short and I encourage you to check it out.
FREEDOM 💛 – 1.11.21 More to come, but I’m excited to finally share this album’s name and soul (the cover I’m apparently calling its soul 😂). Be fearless and free -Ace
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Alice was walking in the middle of a quiet mall, she didn’t think much of life, it just seemed like another ordinary day in the middle of December. She wasn’t alive yet, physically she was, but her soul was a dying whisper waiting to get loud. She blended into the crowd, her mask on her face and her mask on her soul, fear consumed too much of her inside that she couldn’t realize the magic within. She didn’t know her own opinions or beliefs, she just did what the news said because in her mind, why would they lie?
A man walked up to her, he stopped by her but he took a breath before speaking. His shirt read, “Wake up world” and in small letters at the bottom of his shirt it said, “The truth starts with making your own beliefs and thinking from your own mind”. Alice couldn’t quite understand the shirt, it made no sense to her and this man felt that. He whispered in her ear, “Don’t trust the media, it isn’t looking out for you. Just look around and open your eyes.” He smiled and walked past her, Alice would remember this conversation but, at the moment, it confused her very much.
A week passed, she continued working at her boring job with masked up people, but something inside of her had turned on. Alice hadn’t paid much attention to the news, for every time it was on, the ringing in her ears became so loud, her eyes couldn’t adjust to the screen and the funny conversation she had with that man became the only thing she could think about. As Alice was thinking about all of this, one of her co-workers turned on the news. Instinctually, she got up. She had no idea what she was doing, but she just couldn’t take it. In this instance, Alice’s mind followed her body as she walked out the door.
She sat on the bench outside and took a deep breath, something had changed inside. She had this inclination to research, to rebel, to change and to become something else. All of the sudden, something just didn’t feel right in her world and it all started with the whisper from that man.
Alice was so in her thoughts, that she didn’t even realize the man sitting across from her. It was the same guy who whispered in her ear at the mall, she looked up and said, “You again? Are you following me?”
The man laughed, “No, it just so happens the Universe synced us up again.”
She smiled and looked at the ground, it still felt kind of awkward to her that this man showed up again.
“Something has changed within you, I can sense it. You’re thinking and your eyes are opening, you just need to follow that feeling all the way and trust yourself.”
She opened her mouth to answer but the man was gone, like he disappeared in the wind. It was the strangest occurrence. Was she imagining this entire conversation? Maybe she was just dreaming, or had she truly gone crazy?
As she walked back up to her desk, the news was still blaring. She kept her head down and walked to her cubical, she put her head in her hands and sat down.
“What is wrong with me?”
This voice came in her head, “Nothing, you’ve just become alive.”
A Few Months Later
She sat on her couch and smiled, it’d been three months to the day since she quit her job and changed her whole life. She dove into research and figuring out what the world was really about, she began writing again. Through this writing she discovered the depths of her soul and her own truth. She started a new job that fulfilled her purpose and that made her feel alive; Alice would never again have a job that made her feel dead inside. In a few short months, she had grown so much and it all started with a whisper.
She walked into the busy grocery store filled with fearful people. She was now mask-less, nothing covering her face or her soul, she stepped in with confidence and strength. She immediately noticed all the people staring at her shirt that in big letters read, “Just Look Around & Open Your Eyes”, the six words that changed her life. Alice spotted someone her age who was masked and obviously buying into the game, so Alice strolled up to her.
The woman was alarmed and taken a back, and Alice could sense it. Alice had always hoped to repay the gift that was given to her, so she whispered into this woman’s ear, “This thing covering your mouth, it’s not for your health, it is for control. Look for the truth within because you won’t find it outside, the media is just a lie.”
The woman was speechless but, Alice wasn’t looking for an answer, all she wanted to do was help her fellow human, because sometimes the truth just started with a whisper.
Be fearless and free -Ace
Author’s Note – I normally don’t like giving my character’s names unless I’m writing a huge story or something. I try to avoid labels as much as I can. But, this story would be too confusing without her name, so I searched for names that meant truth and Alice was the first to come up. It makes sense, get it, Alice In Wonderland, going down the rabbit hole, etc.
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I thought I’d do something a little different today and do more of a journal entry/letter type share that describes what’s on my mind and how I’m feeling. Thank you for reading! I hope this helps you on your journey and remember, dig for truth everywhere you go. Don’t believe the outside, believe the inside, you. Be fearless and free -Ace How are you truly feeling today?
Fearless Free Soul 