Category: mind

Smell The Roses

September 14th, 2021

They say the journey is the destination and I think I’m finally understanding what that means. Maybe that’s because I can see parts of my map now, or maybe it’s because I’ve let go of needing to see the map. I really don’t think there is a destination, I don’t think I’ve ever thought there was a destination. But I definitely lost sight of the joy in the journey…no more!!

A lot of thoughts were flying through my mind last week; a combination of the unknowns of change, the desire for something new and the readiness to let go of repetitive pasts. I actually enjoyed listening to all these unfinished conversations in my head. In the “unfinishedness” I got to see possible new versions of me, older versions of me I’ve known, and I got to watch how the me I am now navigated through every turn.

It’s fun to watch where your mind travels, even when it goes to the craziest of places. It’s there you learn that maybe crazy isn’t crazy, maybe it’s just a different point on the map. Part of me knows this life is one of many destinations on my soul’s map. And part of me knows there is no map, I am the map. I love playing in this paradox because that’s where I am free. When we forget to enjoy the little moments and spend time in our daydreams and listen to our inner voice and speak our intuition – we lose sight of who we truly are.

So, the next time you notice your mind bursting with thoughts, visions and adventures of many varieties take a moment to water those seeds. And when those seeds bloom and become roses, take time to smell the roses. On our family bike rides, there’s always this one spot at the end; a little roundabout of roses. And that literal moment of smelling the roses totally reenergizes the soul. So, imagine what a moment of being still and playing in your mind’s garden can do for the soul?

Only you have the power to make your thoughts reality. Only you have the choice to enjoy the freedom of the wandering mind.

Be fearless and free -Ace

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My Story Of Unanswered Questions

April 6th, 2021

Unanswered questions came knocking at my door, I opened it and let them in. Then that happened again and again and again; the nagging voices got worse each time. I jumped in, I gave them space in my head, I let them soak in all my attention, I watched them appear in my dreams – I saw them in the back of my head every single day.

I let these unanswered questions search for my fear and they found it, my fear being the future. All the uncertainty and change was a golden opportunity for my unanswered questions to run wild. I could get distracted for a period of time, but when silence visited, they knew it was too peaceful in my head. My barrier was down and they swarmed my brain like an army of well-trained soldiers, each knowing every angle that they could attack.

I started bringing my awareness to all the visits from my unanswered questions, I’d watch as one thought would spark the next, each one piling on top of each other until my belief crumbled. But, when I picked another thought aligned with love, or when I let my own voice speak up, they’d all fly away. It took conscious awareness to push them away and this was something so exhausting, but, incredibly worthwhile. Like a battle in my own head, I was done surrendering, I had to stand up for myself before their strategies controlled my whole being.

After some practice of consciously fighting back with love, I realized fighting wasn’t the answer, letting go was. These unanswered questions and the fear behind them aren’t the real me, they’re just little parasites trying to take away my power. They could be evil, but why attach a label? When you put a label of fear, more fear attaches. So, instead I just asked myself a simple question, which thoughts are serving me a higher good – love or fear?

So, when the first soldier or unanswered question popped in my head, I’d notice it, but, I let it float away. All the forces of my higher self were ready and waiting, but, the battle was irrelevant. It just became about choice, and I finally chose to pick me and love above all else. These unanswered questions never stopped visiting, I just paid less and less attention. So, my reality and their reality was no longer a match. Don’t get me wrong, this wasn’t just any easy split second decision. This was a conscious effort that I made over and over again, until it became subconscious. Once I know longer thought about it and just let the love in me do the work, these unanswered questions had no power or life – after all, I am the vessel that chooses whether to give them life or not.

Letting go, has never been easy for me, but, it’s always been rewarding. After practicing letting go in a billion little battles in my head, it became one big let go – fear. My fear of the future lost its grasp on me and I let go. I realized so much is out of my control, but what I can control, is the way I handle the uncertainty. My thoughts will become reality, and that’s my place in my future. So, as the Universe (above and in me) smiled down on this lesson learned, it hugged me too.

Just as I’d let go, it showed me the answer. I internally smiled because it’s funny when we no longer worry about something, the worry gets answered.

And that’s when the Universe, me, whispered, “Simplicity is all there is. Simply let go, and I’ll take care of the rest. Enjoy the ride.”

Be fearless and free -Ace
my maze

March 24th, 2021

My mind has many paradoxes
It’s like the maze of my soul
Some days, I think I know each hole
The next day, I’m on a new stroll
There is no magical key
Where I’ll wake up and know every wave in my sea
I guess that’s the thing about this realm
Those at the helm
Don’t have the answers
Those around me
Don’t have the answers
I AM the answer
As my thoughts and dreams are the dancer
My mind is filled with many curves
Each piece has its purpose it serves
Connected to my being and its nerves
I am not what a version of me deserves
I am the me I choose to be through the power of mind
I am one of a kind
I am my soul and head intertwined
I am the Universe aligned
The stars and voices combined
My head can be blurry and odd
Unpredictable but a channel of god
Alive and abroad
Here’s the thing
My mind is always the voice I sing
No matter which way I swing
We’re connected though this magical string
Never lonely, it’s the Universe I bring
Ace
My Dive

January 6th, 2021

A journal entry felt right for today! Have the freedom and bravery to dive into your waves of emotion, only through the dive can you find the shore again. Be fearless and free -Ace
we all write stories

January 4th, 2021

My story is writing itself
The words being my fire’s soul
I can never erase
Perfectionism I don’t chase
Because what makes the story gold
Are the ups and downs in my world
Loving the character comes easy
When you see the growth
Not all the happy moments because then it’s just cheesy
The outside I can’t control
But I can live from my soul
Life’s path is what I make it
I will keep my true grit
Improve my wit
And always keep my fire lit
Ace
Saying Goodbye To 2020

December 31st, 2020

Dear 2020:

On this last day with you, all the memories I’ve made this year come crashing in, the tremendous amount I’ve grown this year makes me smile and the dreams that have come true sends a rush through my being. I honestly can’t believe this is it with you, this year has seemed long at times and very fast at other times. To some, you may have been an annoying and tough year but, to me you have been an eye opening and truth-filled year that I will forever be grateful for.

You’ve changed my life in so many ways. To start, you woke me up out of the dream of lies this world is full of. You gave the truth a new meaning this year and with that truth came true freedom. In the beginning, I’ll admit, it wasn’t easy. I felt like my whole world had been rocked and my dreams too, but then came the gratitude, freedom and drive to make a difference. The truth has truly become my best friend and I wouldn’t want it any other away, I am so grateful to be really alive. I will never sleep again, being alive gives me purpose and makes my fire inside light up the world. So, thank you for all the truth you’ve brought to me, that’s just one way you changed my life and me.

Another way you’ve changed my life and I, is by making my dream of having a website/blog come true. There was no better time than with you to make my dream a reality and I am so so grateful to you. This website has brought me so much comfort, connection and freedom. The people I’ve gotten to connect with through my blog has been truly amazing, I never thought I’d get to have the pleasure of connecting with such beautiful souls from across the world. Writing is my best friend, I’ve spent so so many hours typing/creating away. My debut album, my story, my future sophomore album and all the posts in between will be a part of my heart and soul forever, thank you for that. I can’t believe it has only been four months of blogging, I feel like this website has been inside of me forever. I’ve grown so much mentally and emotionally and I think that credit goes to you, for both bringing this website and the truth into my life.

Yet another way you’ve change my life and I, is by bringing a much needed balance to my life. Tennis and being an athlete is my passion, but so is writing and helping raise the frequency of this planet. Combining both, plus spending time in nature, being with my family, connecting with my friends and just the everyday things in life I got to enjoy more this year, really has brought me true balance. I know in my soul that all the writing and creating really has helped the athlete side of me grow and get better and the athlete side of me has helped my words have so much depth and meaning to them. Without the athlete, I wouldn’t be fearless and free and without the writer, I wouldn’t be as joyous or alive. I truly thank you for the harmony you’ve created in my life through the balance of both sides of me, I truly feel that in each day I thrive.

I have to be honest and say that this year with you hasn’t been all sunny and bright, there have been some rough and dark days. But I know in my gut that without those tough days, the bright days wouldn’t mean as much and I definitely wouldn’t have grown. It is in the dark I have truly chosen to evolve and to come out stronger. Another way you have changed my life and I, is by showing me what it really means to love myself and to believe in myself. With that newfound love and belief in myself, I can truly see that those tough days shaped me into the unique light that I am. Those days taught me how to shine my light and how to be strong in the weirdest of times. I think vibration and energy also have a new meaning to me this year, thanks to you. I feel so much more in touch with my energy, much more control over my energy partly due to cutting out sugar from life completely and I definitely can read other’s energy much much better. I even got the experience of seeing other’s auras which was fascinating. I am authentically myself, no matter how much that person changes, I am my true self every single day. I am so hard on myself and giving myself credit isn’t the easiest thing in the world, but, I can say with full truth that I am really proud of the fearless and free soul I am.

2020, I hate to say goodbye, you really have brought me so much. I know you’ve been treated poorly at times but, I get your message and I see you. I know the truth is your purpose and I will always remember you for that. Thank you for the joy, love, truth, comfort, connection and growth you have brought me. Thank you for strengthening my relationships with my family and friends and thank you for showing me that dreams and thoughts do become reality; I’ve always believed that and I always will. 2020, the Universe, thank you. -Ace
2020’s reality

December 30th, 2020

When 2020 began
2019 ran
I thought I knew my year
With my dream so near
But then the truth hit me
And I could no longer just be
I had to dig
And dive for answers
Because I realized lies
Were all this world presented
I don’t resent it
I just needed an alarm clock
To wake me up
As my world changed
And my dreams too
I kept fighting for you
That soul inside
Whose drive cried
To take place in my reality
Then this blog was born
Never thought I’d be here
Feeling the Universe so near
Blessed beyond words
To have connected with you
And to have a made a dream
Reality
Changing my mentality
And practicing my dimensionality
2020 has shaped me into a better version
Giving the truth my total immersion
I thank you
For helping me awaken
For being the friend I needed
For making dreams come true
For letting me grow
And teaching me how to glow
Every single day in a row
Ace
Howling For Love

December 29th, 2020

Like a wolf she growled, the moon shined on her like a radiant angel. But it wasn’t the moon that made her alive, for who even knew what the moon was. The stars inside powered her soul and brought a twinkle to her eyes. The growl that roared out of her was for the love that was missing in the world. She alone, could not bring all of it back, she needed the rest of her pack. She howled to the night and her voice spread through the woods, her brothers and sisters would always hear her because they all vibrated at the same frequency, love.

United, we are one, let’s bring the love back! Be fearless and free -Ace
float away

December 28th, 2020

Each breathe
Is a new chance
To give the truth a glance
It all starts with love
You can feel it’s force above
That something in the air
Love always makes you care
It’s not about fair
It’s all about feel
Don’t let others make you kneel
Stand in your truth
And be who you really are
Fake is not raw
It’s just a flaw
Simple to fix
Because love and fear just don’t mix
Diving deep in my soul
Until I feel whole
Intuition’s on a roll
I see me
I see you
I see truth
I see light
I see darkness
No matter what
I see
And I’m always truly me
Letting this feeling be
Just like a tree
Rooted to my truth
Growing each day
Shedding what needs to go
And sitting in the peace
That I am all
Fear will continue to fall
As I listen to my fire’s call
Because with the light on
No lies can stay
They’ll just float away
Ace
The Sedona Hike

December 26th, 2020
I open the gate, and enter the climb. It’s as if I’ve entered this otherworldly vortex into the red rock. Speaking of the red rock, it surrounds me, everywhere I look, it’s there smiling down at me. The red rock has memories and spirit just like the trees and bushes, the clay that my shoes march on and the rocks that are stuck in the ground and loosely laying on the clay. The chilly air brushes past me as the sun tries to emerge from the clouds. Try as it might, the chill of the winter always comes strongly through, and I’m starting to enjoy it.
I start surrounded by red rock, the terrain and the crunch of my feet against the rough clay is one of my favorite sounds. I keep up my pace and breathe in the crisp air, the rock surrounding me, makes me feel at home, as though nothing can enter this magical little bubble I’m encapsulated in.

Then I meet the crossroads and enter a trail that’s lower to the ground. There’s more dirt here, and I’m just realizing I’ve entered a new bubble; the bubble of the majestic trees. I look up and all I see is the tops of long trees and a little hint of some more red rock. The air is cooler in this bubble, and the chill that runs through my spine awakens my soul. I’ve had visions of this foresty reality, it seems so familiar yet so new. I enjoy the feeling this place brings, it’s as if I’m in a scene in a movie. I put my hands on the rough bark and feel the soul of the tree, I hear it smiling down at me and inhaling my aura. I take my hand off the tree and keep walking, through the crunch of the leaves as the dirt runs into my shoes. Usually, the extra dirt would bother me but, I think it’s the energy in the air that makes me relax about it.

As I start the trek back, I move faster, the downhill terrain giving me momentum. But I try to slow down, I want to savor this moment with the trees, the dirt, the leaves, the red rock and the chill air. My soul feels so at peace and my mind is at ease, I realize my thoughts have evaporated during this entire walk. Maybe that’s my doing, or is yet again the magic of Sedona? I don’t look for an answer as I continue to enjoy the clear space in my head.

Before I know it, the four miles are up and this hike is over. It does feel different as I exit the bubble I was in for a few hours, I feel like I’ve entered the world again. Maybe this hike was a daydream or maybe it was an escape into a vortex, no matter what I will never forget the magic.

Be fearless and free -Ace