Category: Trust

doors

January 3rd, 2023

turn the handle
hear the soft creak
take a deep breath
put one foot through
take one more breath
see what seems true
observe all the rest
leave the door behind
learn a few lessons
walk a few steps
venture too far
hit a wall
find the door again
lock it, no look back
hear a knock
over and over
easy to know who
with thumps so familiar
yet the door remains closed
then the sound becomes
more of a ring
and the heart listens
thinking bout turning the lock
ring ring ring ring
walk up to the door
feel the handle
walk away
walk back to the door
take a deep breath
open it once again
put one foot through
and pause
say one’s piece
make peace
with what’s beyond
the door
hear it almost close
behind thyself
take a deep breath
and wonder
how many doors
will stay open
how many doors
will stay closed
how many doors
will stay in-between
-Grace

Author’s Note – A little bit of a different style for me, but I wanted to play around with words…that is the beauty of writing after all :).

Often, I’ve felt comfort in hearing a door close and I’m learning to love hearing a door open. Doors open and close in life, it’s always kind of interesting to watch the journey. So cheers to finding peace in whichever way the door moves.
The Answer

January 9th, 2021

Life is such a funny ride, the Universe is a one of kind creature. I wish I could tell you I’ve figured it out, but each day I learn something new and realize the journey is the joy. I know my soul has lived many lives, I feel it in my gut. But, the Universe is still such a vast galaxy that I’m just starting to navigate. There’s somedays where I know manifestation is a real thing, other days I realize wanting something so bad or thinking about it too much isn’t the answer, the moment I let go the Universe gives it to me. On my tough days, the journey is the nightmare. I run to the edges of mind looking for an answer, a clue, as to what I’m really doing. Then there’s the days where I smile ear to ear, thanking myself for choosing this crazy journey.

But no matter what day I’m having, I always trust. I’ve learned that to worry and to choose anxiety only creates more of it. Overthinking is a curse that comes to haunt me at times, it tricks me into believing that thinking will give me an answer. What gives me an answer is feeling and trusting, I ultimately know why I’m here because I chose it. That voice I listen to is the real me, the powerful and knowing one that travels to my heart, my mind and my intuition but truly has a home in my soul. That voice knows the answer, it shows me the way and gives me a glimpse of my compass in my dreams. Somedays, I beg that voice to just show me it all, because it knows the journey all the way from the beginning and all the way to the end. But on days like today, I say thank you, because I realize what I’m truly doing.

Through the journey, I find little answers creating the big answer. The answer to every question, every wonder, is right here in me. I keep dreaming, writing, waking up, searching, diving, laughing, loving, trusting, listening, acting, choosing, believing, smiling, imagining, feeling and living because through all of it, I get the answer. I think I’m trapped in this reality my eyes are supposed to see, but the reality I choose to live in, is in my mind. I know, on the toughest days my mind resembles a cage, but most days it’s my escape. There I grow, I see and I hear, because this outside world is not meant for me. In my mind, I put together the voices of my heart, soul and intuition and those voices create the answer.

The Answer is the Journey

Be fearless and free – Ace
back to you

January 7th, 2021

Oh connection
So many days I craved you
Felt you near but so far too
Look at us now
Holy cow!
You’ve engulfed my days
In so many ways
Thank you isn’t enough
Been through some stuff
Never thought I’d feel so close to you
On those days I felt so blue
I sent my wishes and they flew
You got my message
And delivered a presage
First came him
Super unexpected
But something connected
Here we are still
Lots of moments have been a thrill
I think right now we’re missing you
But it’ll be back
We’re on the right track
Then came her
Started slow
Then came talks for days in a row
Fun for a certain time
Just recently I said goodbye
I’m not mad at you
I actually want to say thank you
For keeping my circle real
And the truth near
Next you brought me this community
Providing me with so much unity
I feel so blessed
I would’ve never guessed
How many beautiful souls
Came knocking on my door
I opened it and asked for more
So many amazing conversations
Turning into lots of real relations
Through it came her
A definite spark
The Universe aligned us
Feel like we can talk about anything
Even though many miles keep us apart
Many smiles come to my heart
Then came him
Perfect timing
Starting to hit our stride
Enjoying this fun ride
I think this is just the beginning
And there’s much ahead
It’s just what the Universe said
Through it all
Has been my rock, my family
Been with me since I was born
And will be with me till the end of time
It’s harder to make these words rhyme
It just means my heart is so alive
My family, I thank you
I know it’s not nearly enough
I could write endless poems about each of you
That is definitely true
I always love you, my forever glue
To Ace, it’s all inside
Love yourself, and they come
Felt like a while to be able to say
I love you
But now that you’re there
It’s all about continuing to care
Whenever there is a tare
Come back to honesty, communication and love
Connection is always floating above
This poem is too long
But the words are flowing like a song
Connection, I see, hear and thank you
Making my life complete
And my vibe most often upbeat
Even in the tough phases
My soul raises
I will always find my way through
Back to you
Ace
My Dive

January 6th, 2021

A journal entry felt right for today! Have the freedom and bravery to dive into your waves of emotion, only through the dive can you find the shore again. Be fearless and free -Ace
we all write stories

January 4th, 2021

My story is writing itself
The words being my fire’s soul
I can never erase
Perfectionism I don’t chase
Because what makes the story gold
Are the ups and downs in my world
Loving the character comes easy
When you see the growth
Not all the happy moments because then it’s just cheesy
The outside I can’t control
But I can live from my soul
Life’s path is what I make it
I will keep my true grit
Improve my wit
And always keep my fire lit
Ace
FREEDOM – Track List Out Now!!

January 1st, 2021

It’s almost time guys, the album is almost here! This is the final announcement before the release of my sophomore video album, FREEDOM! I can’t wait to share this album with you, but for now you have the track list! Comment with what video you’re most excited for!! Full album release on 1.11.21. Be fearless and free -Ace

Comment with the video you’re most excited for!!!!!!!
Saying Goodbye To 2020

December 31st, 2020

Dear 2020:

On this last day with you, all the memories I’ve made this year come crashing in, the tremendous amount I’ve grown this year makes me smile and the dreams that have come true sends a rush through my being. I honestly can’t believe this is it with you, this year has seemed long at times and very fast at other times. To some, you may have been an annoying and tough year but, to me you have been an eye opening and truth-filled year that I will forever be grateful for.

You’ve changed my life in so many ways. To start, you woke me up out of the dream of lies this world is full of. You gave the truth a new meaning this year and with that truth came true freedom. In the beginning, I’ll admit, it wasn’t easy. I felt like my whole world had been rocked and my dreams too, but then came the gratitude, freedom and drive to make a difference. The truth has truly become my best friend and I wouldn’t want it any other away, I am so grateful to be really alive. I will never sleep again, being alive gives me purpose and makes my fire inside light up the world. So, thank you for all the truth you’ve brought to me, that’s just one way you changed my life and me.

Another way you’ve changed my life and I, is by making my dream of having a website/blog come true. There was no better time than with you to make my dream a reality and I am so so grateful to you. This website has brought me so much comfort, connection and freedom. The people I’ve gotten to connect with through my blog has been truly amazing, I never thought I’d get to have the pleasure of connecting with such beautiful souls from across the world. Writing is my best friend, I’ve spent so so many hours typing/creating away. My debut album, my story, my future sophomore album and all the posts in between will be a part of my heart and soul forever, thank you for that. I can’t believe it has only been four months of blogging, I feel like this website has been inside of me forever. I’ve grown so much mentally and emotionally and I think that credit goes to you, for both bringing this website and the truth into my life.

Yet another way you’ve change my life and I, is by bringing a much needed balance to my life. Tennis and being an athlete is my passion, but so is writing and helping raise the frequency of this planet. Combining both, plus spending time in nature, being with my family, connecting with my friends and just the everyday things in life I got to enjoy more this year, really has brought me true balance. I know in my soul that all the writing and creating really has helped the athlete side of me grow and get better and the athlete side of me has helped my words have so much depth and meaning to them. Without the athlete, I wouldn’t be fearless and free and without the writer, I wouldn’t be as joyous or alive. I truly thank you for the harmony you’ve created in my life through the balance of both sides of me, I truly feel that in each day I thrive.

I have to be honest and say that this year with you hasn’t been all sunny and bright, there have been some rough and dark days. But I know in my gut that without those tough days, the bright days wouldn’t mean as much and I definitely wouldn’t have grown. It is in the dark I have truly chosen to evolve and to come out stronger. Another way you have changed my life and I, is by showing me what it really means to love myself and to believe in myself. With that newfound love and belief in myself, I can truly see that those tough days shaped me into the unique light that I am. Those days taught me how to shine my light and how to be strong in the weirdest of times. I think vibration and energy also have a new meaning to me this year, thanks to you. I feel so much more in touch with my energy, much more control over my energy partly due to cutting out sugar from life completely and I definitely can read other’s energy much much better. I even got the experience of seeing other’s auras which was fascinating. I am authentically myself, no matter how much that person changes, I am my true self every single day. I am so hard on myself and giving myself credit isn’t the easiest thing in the world, but, I can say with full truth that I am really proud of the fearless and free soul I am.

2020, I hate to say goodbye, you really have brought me so much. I know you’ve been treated poorly at times but, I get your message and I see you. I know the truth is your purpose and I will always remember you for that. Thank you for the joy, love, truth, comfort, connection and growth you have brought me. Thank you for strengthening my relationships with my family and friends and thank you for showing me that dreams and thoughts do become reality; I’ve always believed that and I always will. 2020, the Universe, thank you. -Ace
The Sedona Hike

December 26th, 2020
I open the gate, and enter the climb. It’s as if I’ve entered this otherworldly vortex into the red rock. Speaking of the red rock, it surrounds me, everywhere I look, it’s there smiling down at me. The red rock has memories and spirit just like the trees and bushes, the clay that my shoes march on and the rocks that are stuck in the ground and loosely laying on the clay. The chilly air brushes past me as the sun tries to emerge from the clouds. Try as it might, the chill of the winter always comes strongly through, and I’m starting to enjoy it.
I start surrounded by red rock, the terrain and the crunch of my feet against the rough clay is one of my favorite sounds. I keep up my pace and breathe in the crisp air, the rock surrounding me, makes me feel at home, as though nothing can enter this magical little bubble I’m encapsulated in.

Then I meet the crossroads and enter a trail that’s lower to the ground. There’s more dirt here, and I’m just realizing I’ve entered a new bubble; the bubble of the majestic trees. I look up and all I see is the tops of long trees and a little hint of some more red rock. The air is cooler in this bubble, and the chill that runs through my spine awakens my soul. I’ve had visions of this foresty reality, it seems so familiar yet so new. I enjoy the feeling this place brings, it’s as if I’m in a scene in a movie. I put my hands on the rough bark and feel the soul of the tree, I hear it smiling down at me and inhaling my aura. I take my hand off the tree and keep walking, through the crunch of the leaves as the dirt runs into my shoes. Usually, the extra dirt would bother me but, I think it’s the energy in the air that makes me relax about it.

As I start the trek back, I move faster, the downhill terrain giving me momentum. But I try to slow down, I want to savor this moment with the trees, the dirt, the leaves, the red rock and the chill air. My soul feels so at peace and my mind is at ease, I realize my thoughts have evaporated during this entire walk. Maybe that’s my doing, or is yet again the magic of Sedona? I don’t look for an answer as I continue to enjoy the clear space in my head.

Before I know it, the four miles are up and this hike is over. It does feel different as I exit the bubble I was in for a few hours, I feel like I’ve entered the world again. Maybe this hike was a daydream or maybe it was an escape into a vortex, no matter what I will never forget the magic.

Be fearless and free -Ace
Magical Twinkle

December 24th, 2020

As I start to write this, I feel so grateful to the Universe and so connected to the love frequency. I’ve finally made it to Sedona, the vacation spot I’ve been dreaming about visiting for months!!! As cold as it is here 🤪, the change of scenery is much needed after having been nowhere this year. The energy here is so calm and refreshing; I feel as though this spot exists out of time and in a slightly different reality.

The Universe is seriously incredible, I know in a way I’m saying I’m incredible, because I AM (we all are) the Universe 😂 but, I don’t mean it that way. There seems to be this magical force that’s been following me around since a few days before the solstice; thoughts, manifestations and dreams have been becoming reality so quickly. I feel like all those days I told myself to keep trusting the Universe and all my wishes would come true someday, have been so totally worth it. I think it is important to be vulnerable and raw about the tough moments, and to savor the high moments when they come. That’s what this post is about; this magical twinkle that has touched my aura, is something I feel so blessed to share.

Magical Twinkle

Sparkle in my eyes
Erasing the world’s lies
Including the skies
The special shine in my aura
Due to the miracles the Universe
Has brought to my door
I’m sure it’s been here before
And my eyes weren’t ready to see
But today I’m immersed in it
Don’t know how long this feeling will stay
No matter what I’ll always remember
As I savor each moment like the best meal
I’ve ever eaten
Today I’m not feeling beaten
By the world and its madness
I’m here and alive inside
The twinkle in my soul
Has my vibration elevated
The connection I feel to all
Is answering my heart’s call
Feeling so alive and blessed overall
The best part is that I can choose this feeling
Whenever I want
And so can you
The choice is ours to thrive
I know somedays are hard
When you feel so stuck
But rise out of the muck
And come to this side
Don’t let fear make you hide
The beauty of this life is the ride
It may seem like our world is only dark
But your spark
Is always
The Magic Twinkle
Ace

Wishing you all the feeling of this magical twinkle!! The Universe is you, miracles always surround us, it just takes our open eyes to see and unlocked hearts to feel. Believe in your dreams because they will come true, I promise. The power is in you to thrive and it all starts with our perception! Feel the tough days, savor the high ones and enjoy the ups and downs of this journey we call life. The ups and downs make the adventure that much better! Much love to you all, be fearless and free -Ace
Today’s Thoughts

December 4th, 2020

I thought I’d do something a little different today and do more of a journal entry/letter type share that describes what’s on my mind and how I’m feeling. Thank you for reading! I hope this helps you on your journey and remember, dig for truth everywhere you go. Don’t believe the outside, believe the inside, you. Be fearless and free -Ace

How are you truly feeling today?